dopespike

sooo, i'm thinking about getting a piercing.... hmmmm....

Study was a no go, it's too late and I didn't know the material. Not much I can do, I jsut gotta not bomb the rest of my exams. Am I stressed? You bet your sweet ass. But who isn't right? This is only my future. I am just too distracted.


There is something that I want more then all the riches in the world because I know all the riches couldn't get it for me. Am I am pessimistic hoper? Hope and hope and hope and think that there is no hope then in the end; failure and rejection overcome leaving nothing behind but hurt and sadness. Do I just jump to conclusions or base my opinions and fears on all of my past experiences? There are some things that I fear more then death yet there is little that I know of to control it and it consumes me. It swallows every thought that I have leaving the unwanted path of illogical fear that has nothing to suppress it. I cannot eat, sleep, or think without these thoughts in my head, and there is only one escape. An escape that seems so unattainable, I try to reach it but it does not respond or just pushes away. Leaving me alone in this shell, weak and unprotected to any threat that may be lurking around the next corner. I see the last bit of hope in the far reaches of the dark tunnel. The deep unknown with nothing to protect me.