dopesickboy

I am really fuckin high right now.... I think I did a bit more drugs than I should have done, but I am not dieing this time, so it's all wood. The weather is rather nice outside today. It's still cold as hell and pretty cloudy, but there have been some pretty decent patches of sunshine and it's been dry all day. Or at least since like 12:30 or so when I woke up. It's definitely a nice change from the past while. Living under a bridge and having to wear the same clothes day after day gets rather old, especially when it is constantly raining and said clothes are all wet and never have a chance to fully dry. But on a happier note, when Sara and I went to "Dinner and a Movie" at the church last night, they had a few brand new sleeping bags and we were both able to get one. So last night me and Sara unzipped our new sleeping bags and zipped them up together With our old sleeping bag and blankets on top of that, it was so nice and warm that me and Sara were able to go ahead and take all of our clothes and sleep together nekkid all night.
Despite honest efforts on both our parts, Sara and I ended up having sex together the other night. I really feel bad, because I feel as if I am betraying my bro by being with Sara. But realistically, he is going to be in prison for the next decade or so, and one really can't expect Sara to wait around for him; that would just be insane. I really to care about her and she feels the same about me, it's not just about the physical pleasure that we enjoy when we sleep together. I don't know, I feel bad because she was/kind of still is my bro's girl, but I am really happy being with her. I wish I could let my bro know what happened, because I don't like having to hide it from him. But because he is in prison and I know he would just go and do something stupid if we did tell him, me and Sara decided it would be best to just not let him know what's going on between us.