doontheloon

I never thought i'd be ready for something again but i guess i could handle it. I'm really content with how things are going right now except...when i lay down at night to go to sleep there is nobody there next to me..nobody that i can text dirty and nasty or lovey and dovey thoughts to. I want a girl that's as devious as the black black in her hair but as true as the brown in her eyes. Someone that knows when to back me up and when to put me in my place. A girl who can take it just as well as she can dish it out. Where are you hiding?

I need to get out of this fucking pit of a town. I drink here every night in order to pass the time. It's ridiculous how quickly i slipped back into the whole scheme of things just by moving back here. It flew right under my radar. When i first got back it was a party. But it never stopped. I go to work hung over every single fucking day. I've actually stopped getting hang overs. I mean.....im not worthless....i do have a full time job...but something isn't right. My body use to be in shape. Now when i look at myself in the mirror i dont even know who is standing on the other side. Its like there is another world behind the mirrored glass and my old body was kidnapped and replaced by a zombie-conformist-shadow of what i use to be.


fuck.....today is a bad day and idk why. i've kind of had it.