doontheloon

My girlfriend, classmate and really good friend from grade school thru junior year passed away about 6 years ago of leukemia. Her name was Abby. She was the most beautiful girl my town had ever seen. She was amazing at everything she did. Sports. School. She was everyones best friend. We dated for about a year (7th-8th grade). She has always stayed with me even though she has passed away. Not a day passes when i dont think about her in some way or another. It's so strange because every couple months or so I will dream about her. Im not just talking about fuzzy dreams that I barely remember. These dreams are so real that when I wake up I'm sad that I can't get back into them. I feel like she is actually there. I'm sure this sounds weird, but this is what happened again last night. It was a fairly short dream but that takes nothing away from the vivid detail that i could feel. I dreamt that we were sitting in class and one of my teachers was writing on the board. Abby was sitting in the seat in front of me. She turns around and we started talking like we always use to do and joking around. She said to me, "i'm just in my sweatpants and this t-shirt..i feel like a bum" And I just sat there and looked into her eyes and she started to smile. Now when she smiled it wasn't something that would go unnoticed. She had the most beautiful smile I've ever seen. I have yet to find one that even compares to hers. I looked her in the eyes and told her, "I think you are beautiful so you don't have to worry." Her smile got bigger and her eyes fluttered at me and then I woke up. I've haven't really felt that peaceful in a long time. I turned over and hugged my pillow and swore I could smell women's shampoo on the pillow next to me.


Now I don't know if I believe in god, or spirits, or supernatural things, but she was there with me. And she always is for some reason.