doomie

So I came into work this morning to this...
the iphone has the shittiest camera on it, but that is blood.

my assistant manager is 23. he is a good friend. he is an artist and a pretty quiet guy. he cuts himself. he broke up with his girlfriend yesterday. he is in the hospital today. i dont know when he is getting out. i am glad he is alive. when he came in yesterday i asked him if he was alright and he said yes. i looked at him hard and said "no really" he said "no....i think i am going crazy." i said..."we are all crazy. are you crazy enough to do something really stupid?"...he said "no." i gave him a hug. he started crying. (i should have known right then) i told him that he needed to talk to someone that sometimes you HAVE to ask for help even if you think it is bullshit...he said.. "i know...i am going to." i said "please do. all i want is for you to be happy..i mean as happy as you can be..i dont expect you to do fucking cartwheels around the store, but shit man"..he laughed. i told him i cared about him and if he needed anything or wanted to talk i would be here...ive been there before. i swear it...i know exactly how you feel. i left. he didnt call.
i know that i did everything i could. i know that people make their own choices and that there is nothing you can to do prevent them from doing what they want. still...