doomie

i hate this town. i need to get outta here before it kills me. dont get me wrong this is home, more of one than i have ever had before, but its not good for me right now. how does one leave a place they have a home and a job tho? not to mention uproot a kid from his family and father? oh well he had his chance to grow up and be a man. cant stay a punk forever, well i guess you can but sometimes sacrifices must be made and he refuses to do that. what a selfish prick. i really hate him. it eats me from the inside out. i cant let jacks grow up seeing that. i also need to quit drinking. i have quit many things in my life men, cars, and drugs. but this could prove to be the most challenging. damn booze. i refuse to join aa because its a fucking cult so looks like ill be doing this on my own. but hey i am used to that..i guess with the extra money i could prolly start thinking about cars again..but just thinking, until i figure out where i am going. my ex from many years ago is saving me this car.
she needs work but hey who doesnt? ah well..
time to get my shit in line and get the fuck out of dodge or in my case fort fucking worthless, tx.
now the only question is...where do i go? ideas welcome. i really love the idea of a different country..
japan, canada...i'm looking at you...
ah well until then.
miss me when im gone <3