so i think my ex (baby's father) is finally seeing what i have been seeing for the past year..we are toxic. there is nothing good about me and him in a relationship together. the only good thing was the sex and out of that came our best thing..our kid. even tho we have been split up for sometime now, he is finally realizing that we cant do this "playing house" thing forever. now comes the shit part. dividing assets, who gets the house, and the biggest one...custody. FML shit is about to get REAL. we never got married, never shared bank accounts, never filed taxes together, but we did buy a house. so...i dont know what that means in terms of getting one of us to leave. all i know is my kid stays with the house for now..and we will see what parent gets the house. goddamnit i wish sometimes i would have just run off to portland when i first found out i was pregnant and that way i wouldnt feel so bad about separating my boy from his father..being a parent sucks right now. there is no RIGHT decision. there is no HAPPY ending. all i know is i love my little man more than anything else in this shit world. man i love my kid but for so many reasons i wish people would listen when i say.. DONT HAVE CHILDREN!!!
kayda:
I'm so sorry. I feel ya. I love my husband and all but we have separated many times and I think one of the reasons we haven't divorced is for our kids. We want to work it out but shit keeps hitting the fan. All you can do is whats best for your child. And i know that isnt always clear. I hope everything works out for you without too much grief.