dontpooyourself

I hope that our few remaining friends give up on trying to save us. I hope we come up with a fail safe plot to piss off the dumb few that forgave us. I hope the fences we mended fall down beneath their own weight. I hope we hang on passed the last exit, I hope it's already too late. And I hope that junkyard a few blocks from here someday burns down, and I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away and I never come back to this town again in my life. I hope I lie. And tell everyone you were a good wife. And I hope you die. I hope we both die. I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow, I hope it bleeds all day long. Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises, we're pretty sure they're all wrong. I hope it stays dark forever. I hope the worst isn't over. I hope you blink before I do. Yeah I hope I never get sober. And I hope when you think of me years down the line, you can't find one good thing to say. And I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out, you'd stay the hell out of my way. I am drowning. There is no sign of land. You are coming down with me. Hand in unlovable hand. And I hope you die. I hope we both die.