I've been in such a mood..a good one at that!
I'm off my meds and feeling better than usual. Go me
Reconciled with my sister..had no choice since we attended same meeting for work (same job, different locations) and I had a fellow coworker there with me so had to do the right thing and pretended like our "lil differences" never existed.
It went well. I had to leave the meeting maybe 5 minutes into it, due to my excessive amount of coughs and panic..had to walk around, decided to take the elevator so no one could hear me, ended up in a vacant basement... I quickly pressed the button to go back up..surprised that man didnt give me the wtf you doing here look..so anyways..took some notes and played with my pen..kinda like in HS. Now I have CPR training and input of medical records onto ATS coming up. Heavy stuff, but I will assist in the meantime. No pressure here.
Why do I hate my own people?
Well...Not all but those that are highly ignorant and so stereotypical, its just...ugh.
ie) Standing between 2 parked cars with my coworker..ok stupid me but we were waiting for our ride..so..car honks its horn..we back off...on sidewalk..far away from car..some lady cusses at me in spanish. ..Hey I was ready to for a showdown..nah, I had to compose myself and I said something back in return. I kinda figured,..could she have a gun? Remember youre in Jamaica Ave...but NO I aint scared of no bitch..I stood there firmly in place, gave her the WHAT look. They left and I was just gutted. Cindy asked me what I had said..I told her, I dont remember but It wasnt nice.
She said..those people hate themselves, hate everything, so yeah they have issues. I wasnt in the way and if I had nails I wouldve thrown them under tires..I can be bad, when I wanna be.
*dont forget*
Keep a bag of nails in purse..just in case.
Nah.
So as we rode off..my friend Cindy decided to speak about this issue with the whole education system in NY, about taking another language which is mandatory to graduate HS.
has been for awhile. Why should her kids be forced to learn something, they might not have any interest in? Learning English is hard for some, cant imagine a foreign language.
I was like YIKES!..not my fault. Yes, people would assume I had the advantage but Nooo..I was born here...family spoke spanglish...and we had to study correct form of spanish..like the one from Spain..with the dumb lisp and all. I passed.
It was just like any regent class, I had to force myself to get into it. Did it help?..sorta...Now I translate. Ive improved and much more confident, that I dont have the "yankee" accent. So yeah call me fluent now.
Highlights of my week-
I'm off my meds and feeling better than usual. Go me
Reconciled with my sister..had no choice since we attended same meeting for work (same job, different locations) and I had a fellow coworker there with me so had to do the right thing and pretended like our "lil differences" never existed.
It went well. I had to leave the meeting maybe 5 minutes into it, due to my excessive amount of coughs and panic..had to walk around, decided to take the elevator so no one could hear me, ended up in a vacant basement... I quickly pressed the button to go back up..surprised that man didnt give me the wtf you doing here look..so anyways..took some notes and played with my pen..kinda like in HS. Now I have CPR training and input of medical records onto ATS coming up. Heavy stuff, but I will assist in the meantime. No pressure here.
Why do I hate my own people?
Well...Not all but those that are highly ignorant and so stereotypical, its just...ugh.
ie) Standing between 2 parked cars with my coworker..ok stupid me but we were waiting for our ride..so..car honks its horn..we back off...on sidewalk..far away from car..some lady cusses at me in spanish. ..Hey I was ready to for a showdown..nah, I had to compose myself and I said something back in return. I kinda figured,..could she have a gun? Remember youre in Jamaica Ave...but NO I aint scared of no bitch..I stood there firmly in place, gave her the WHAT look. They left and I was just gutted. Cindy asked me what I had said..I told her, I dont remember but It wasnt nice.
She said..those people hate themselves, hate everything, so yeah they have issues. I wasnt in the way and if I had nails I wouldve thrown them under tires..I can be bad, when I wanna be.
*dont forget*
Keep a bag of nails in purse..just in case.
Nah.
So as we rode off..my friend Cindy decided to speak about this issue with the whole education system in NY, about taking another language which is mandatory to graduate HS.
has been for awhile. Why should her kids be forced to learn something, they might not have any interest in? Learning English is hard for some, cant imagine a foreign language.
I was like YIKES!..not my fault. Yes, people would assume I had the advantage but Nooo..I was born here...family spoke spanglish...and we had to study correct form of spanish..like the one from Spain..with the dumb lisp and all. I passed.
It was just like any regent class, I had to force myself to get into it. Did it help?..sorta...Now I translate. Ive improved and much more confident, that I dont have the "yankee" accent. So yeah call me fluent now.
Highlights of my week-
[*]I feel so much saner when Im around my 2 yr old niece.
Can't wait to have my own.
[*]Its good to be recognized by your boss for being such a key player. Her assistant told me. I was gleaming the whole day.
Things do get better with time.
Everything does, apparently.
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fridgemagnet:
It might not be it exactly, I'll have to go look around and remember exactly what their name is.
twistedone:
glad everything is going good for ya!