Cant sweat some things this one lady said..., easier said than done, I say.
My problems are like a fog. They hover and linger around..not knowing when itll dissipate. Im sure we all would like to start over again..clean slate and do the right thing rather than tippy toe around feelings, ideas, etc. and trying not to cause distress to anyone or to situations.
Where did my I don't care attitude go?!
Trying so hard to find it.
That's another thing...its always expected for you to show some sensitivity towards others but in turn I get the not total disrespect per se but yeah I always get the I have more important things to say, to think about... than you vibe from alot. I at times wanna be a jerk and set those people straight and belittle them as much as I can because I know its possible but I keep my composure and hope in some ways it comes around to them. It does wonders. Treat others how you would like to be treated..shit, that says alot.
Now I know why I dont give my input, why I keep quiet and why I dont discuss personal matters with others. Its safe and you dont get penalized. I have the stigmata "youre always wrong and Im always right" going.
Well..
Its written for me to look back and hopefully see some improvements in the choices I make in the near future. No pity. I can say I made alot of mistakes. Alot.
I have this 1 person who I thought I can forever feel some kind of love for because of how long we were together but his words had stripped my feelings for him and any hopes of ever being with him again. I think Im his one big regret, now he suffers and itll never be, because of how he thinks right now of me. Irrational. Not gonna toot my own horn but I did so much for those Ive been comitted to, and what I got in return was a kick. Gullible Im not, just a good hearted person w/ a tendency to let her guard down. But then, there is a reason why all this happens. I am a challenge and thats what scares many. Best bet, try to knock me down. I reckon is that.
Im actually fine. This helps and its remedial to ones mental health. The journal that is.
My problems are like a fog. They hover and linger around..not knowing when itll dissipate. Im sure we all would like to start over again..clean slate and do the right thing rather than tippy toe around feelings, ideas, etc. and trying not to cause distress to anyone or to situations.
Where did my I don't care attitude go?!
Trying so hard to find it.
That's another thing...its always expected for you to show some sensitivity towards others but in turn I get the not total disrespect per se but yeah I always get the I have more important things to say, to think about... than you vibe from alot. I at times wanna be a jerk and set those people straight and belittle them as much as I can because I know its possible but I keep my composure and hope in some ways it comes around to them. It does wonders. Treat others how you would like to be treated..shit, that says alot.
Now I know why I dont give my input, why I keep quiet and why I dont discuss personal matters with others. Its safe and you dont get penalized. I have the stigmata "youre always wrong and Im always right" going.
Well..
Its written for me to look back and hopefully see some improvements in the choices I make in the near future. No pity. I can say I made alot of mistakes. Alot.
I have this 1 person who I thought I can forever feel some kind of love for because of how long we were together but his words had stripped my feelings for him and any hopes of ever being with him again. I think Im his one big regret, now he suffers and itll never be, because of how he thinks right now of me. Irrational. Not gonna toot my own horn but I did so much for those Ive been comitted to, and what I got in return was a kick. Gullible Im not, just a good hearted person w/ a tendency to let her guard down. But then, there is a reason why all this happens. I am a challenge and thats what scares many. Best bet, try to knock me down. I reckon is that.
Im actually fine. This helps and its remedial to ones mental health. The journal that is.
twistedone:
Well I'm glad if it helps somewhat just writing stuff in your journal. you can always belittle me if you want, that might make ya feel better 