Tuesday Jun 07, 2005

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Hmm...Think I am being 2 timed.
Think I am being lied to.
And If I ever find out, they will wish they never met me.

Been contemplating awhole lot and think Im being pushed a bit too far for my liking. No, not suicide. I am not crazy just insane but knowing what might be true is making me feel uneasy. I don't think I deserve to be treated or talked about in ways I never knew would be uttered by them.
Kinda gut wrenching but at the same time, the ball is now in my court and revenge will be a bitch. I don't get mad I get even. I've been through alot last year and I don't think I can handle another round this year. I'm going to have to decide my actions and hopefully they are for the better.



Long day. Cleavage is the best gimmick bestowed upon us.

blush I had a tan from waiting for the bus and yeah hot teachers took notice,..*sighs*

frown I am missing my ex. I hate him yet he's still in my heart.
Retarded as it may be. I miss his honesty and his perseverance and his committment to me. I know he did truly love me and maybe it was me who fucked him over. I regret it. He was/is a good guy. Who knows? I would take him back if I could. We had stupid misunderstandings but he cared, I just didn't believe it. blackeyed
See what happens.

You cannot heal, no matter the time.
Sucks.
I'm back in the lost and found.
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dollbabyamy:
Who is lying to you? I am so sorry to see you down like this...I wish I could do something to cheer you up. Is there anything I can do to help? I'm here to listen if you want to talk .
*hugs* kiss
osirisrising:
Appologies for the unsoliseted post, but, I read your post in the Dating Sucks group and I feel your pain. Something like that happened to me...but it was my wife whom had something going on and I found out that she would rather try a relationship with her friend from high school then be with me puke .

Keep your chin up ^^. I know it's a bit trite but it does get better after time. Untill then tet merkaba.

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