Can't get into the habit of smoking so this will be my last pack. Just been a bit moody well more out of the norm. It also makes my stomach icky so Ill leave the cancer sticks behind.
I wasnt mad just disappointed.
Seems like, how stupid as it sounds, Ive always been left stranded by my bf's.
#1- after 6 months, reason most likely cause I was a goody goody and a prude but with justifiable reasons.
2#-I was just the flavor of the month, lasted 8 months.
3#-It was a transatlantic relationship. One I made myself alright with but the departure for both was disheartening after 2yrs and 3 months.
4#-Not only is the current one 10 hrs away but also has a career where it can take months ..years...dont know much but seems like Im destined to be with someone who leaves...
and if Im lucky they return.
I lie if I say yeah Im use to it. Nothing beats being with someone full term. Patience I have, but its not alot.
But for the sake of this 2 month relationship, I should hold out. Didnt do the right thing with the last one, so I wanna do it right this time.
Been seeing alot of British stuff on tv and radio..wtf is up..is that a sign?..kinda makes me homesick cause I did have fun while I was there and things were just invigorating.
I know my ex (him being the brit) is having a difficult time and I tried to be there for him but its not enough I sense. Talking to him for those 2 hrs was uplifting but he knew it wouldnt be like before. Thats where his depression set in. I just dont like hurting anyone unless they had intentions to hurt me. I feel bad because I know I can make him happy again so he says and what we went through didnt matter much. Had to tell him, I already was with someone and I couldnt just walk away. We had 2 years but what went wrong. We were on our way, things were planned but he messed up and I had no choice but to steer clear and let him be because maybe I thought I was something he wanted to break away from but didnt wanna face me head on. Alas, he is miserable but keeping busy and Im here already 2 months with someone I really like. See where this goes. I just wanna be my ex's friend. Not what he hoped for, just wish he would accept that.
Him not answering my email..I wonder.
Just to think I lived right across it, right where the B. It was a dream come true. While on the computer, the guy and I listened to the fans cheer, bang stuff and parts of the game.
Sheffield United has a strong following. Why didnt we ever go now that I think of it?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!?
I wasnt mad just disappointed.
Seems like, how stupid as it sounds, Ive always been left stranded by my bf's.
#1- after 6 months, reason most likely cause I was a goody goody and a prude but with justifiable reasons.
2#-I was just the flavor of the month, lasted 8 months.
3#-It was a transatlantic relationship. One I made myself alright with but the departure for both was disheartening after 2yrs and 3 months.
4#-Not only is the current one 10 hrs away but also has a career where it can take months ..years...dont know much but seems like Im destined to be with someone who leaves...
and if Im lucky they return.
I lie if I say yeah Im use to it. Nothing beats being with someone full term. Patience I have, but its not alot.
But for the sake of this 2 month relationship, I should hold out. Didnt do the right thing with the last one, so I wanna do it right this time.
Been seeing alot of British stuff on tv and radio..wtf is up..is that a sign?..kinda makes me homesick cause I did have fun while I was there and things were just invigorating.
I know my ex (him being the brit) is having a difficult time and I tried to be there for him but its not enough I sense. Talking to him for those 2 hrs was uplifting but he knew it wouldnt be like before. Thats where his depression set in. I just dont like hurting anyone unless they had intentions to hurt me. I feel bad because I know I can make him happy again so he says and what we went through didnt matter much. Had to tell him, I already was with someone and I couldnt just walk away. We had 2 years but what went wrong. We were on our way, things were planned but he messed up and I had no choice but to steer clear and let him be because maybe I thought I was something he wanted to break away from but didnt wanna face me head on. Alas, he is miserable but keeping busy and Im here already 2 months with someone I really like. See where this goes. I just wanna be my ex's friend. Not what he hoped for, just wish he would accept that.
Him not answering my email..I wonder.
Just to think I lived right across it, right where the B. It was a dream come true. While on the computer, the guy and I listened to the fans cheer, bang stuff and parts of the game.
Sheffield United has a strong following. Why didnt we ever go now that I think of it?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!?
I think you might just have to give your ex some time to get used to the idea of the two of you just being friends. He'll come around.
Someday you will find someone who won't leave. You know that you can't stay with someone just for their happiness...... gotta take care of you first......
So about that crack about south american girls! I did meet a lot of girls that were "takers" but I was so broke on this trip that the girls that were expecting a handout were sorely disappointed. I was fortunate enough to meet quite a few girls that were really giving and honest. Most actually paid their own way, and one in Chile always took me to the nice places! So yah, you can consider my one of the exceptions........