domnicella

Not looking forward to this stupid meeting I must attend with a bunch of old folks. Doesnt help that its out in the island.
I will be so glad once its over.
I just want this week to be over. Really bad.

Sad to know I wasnt the only person with a grey area. Seems to happen when we go on vacations. Just a horrible coincidence and I hope it stops there...wow..I actually sighed.
Sandra who is only 3 yrs older than I and who looked very snobbish at first when I began working there, really was very sympathetic towards me, that it got me teary eyed..she as well is going through hard times and her words touched me, more than anyone else there. She made a huge impact on me. It surprised me that she cared.

Ill be 28 soon..dont know if I have fully matured but Im sure in a way I did just that I dont see it, maybe others have.
So I have a plan, no I will make a plan.
I have to get out of this rut Im in and progress somehow.
Do some traveling, be with friends I havent come in contact in awhile, change my appearance..something drastic perhaps, and I guess live a little as opposed to recent years.

I hate patience.

Im a total weakling and I need to grow back my backbone and toughen up. I need restoration. I should be brand new by September.
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Dip your finger in honey
one by one
glistening buttons
slip apart
at lip's touch
tread the tender mountain path
at slope of dewfall

your thumb will trace out
the shell curve of my ear
I turn my face to your
sweet-scented palm
press it to my mouth

sorrow melts away
like the ink of the squid in clear water
your sweat forms a pool in my navel,
or my tear falls, turning through space
to splash
like a sigh on your skin

there is no tomorrow
though dawn glows pink
there is only
flooded heartbeat confluence --

and fusion