I am officially single.
Is it affecting me? yes, big time. But like my past relationships, as time moves forward it will eventually get easier ( as if anyone has a choice). It's harder now being that Ive been through alot. Not happy about the outcome but if thats what suppose to happen in my path in life, then let it be. I did love the person but I dont think he will accept that now. Im just too complicated. Ya know you hurt the ones you love most and I hurt alot of people this year alone and its cause Ive been hurt some way or another. I am really a good person and much of the time, misunderstood.
Lesson learnt I suppose. Cant do much about it looks like.
On to more substantial stuff. Now I can actually apply to a college with the help of the city and maybe go for designing or work for a magazine. My cousin has ties so that would be great. With that in mind, as soon as I go back I can find out and get my self in order which if it works I can hopefully get to my comfort zone...have my dream job, have my family around, get married and have kids, and not worry about financial stuff. I wanna be set. Can I do it in 4 years..of course!..Procrastination was so last year and in 2005 determination will be my middle name.
Got all giddy and bought myself a nice watch with a dancing hula girl inside, well not a real girl but it was cute and quite a pain in the pocket but who cares,right
, shrek 2 and that harry potter 3, oh yeah and a new cell phone.
Cant believe its Sunday already alas, its welcomed. Its been a long week and still no dog
..she will never be replaced so it is burned forever in my heart and mind.
C'est la vie, Adeu
Is it affecting me? yes, big time. But like my past relationships, as time moves forward it will eventually get easier ( as if anyone has a choice). It's harder now being that Ive been through alot. Not happy about the outcome but if thats what suppose to happen in my path in life, then let it be. I did love the person but I dont think he will accept that now. Im just too complicated. Ya know you hurt the ones you love most and I hurt alot of people this year alone and its cause Ive been hurt some way or another. I am really a good person and much of the time, misunderstood.
Lesson learnt I suppose. Cant do much about it looks like.
On to more substantial stuff. Now I can actually apply to a college with the help of the city and maybe go for designing or work for a magazine. My cousin has ties so that would be great. With that in mind, as soon as I go back I can find out and get my self in order which if it works I can hopefully get to my comfort zone...have my dream job, have my family around, get married and have kids, and not worry about financial stuff. I wanna be set. Can I do it in 4 years..of course!..Procrastination was so last year and in 2005 determination will be my middle name.
Got all giddy and bought myself a nice watch with a dancing hula girl inside, well not a real girl but it was cute and quite a pain in the pocket but who cares,right
, shrek 2 and that harry potter 3, oh yeah and a new cell phone.
Cant believe its Sunday already alas, its welcomed. Its been a long week and still no dog
..she will never be replaced so it is burned forever in my heart and mind.
C'est la vie, Adeu
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Your attitude seems incredible though! I love the way your looking forward to the new year and the opportunities it's presents.
Maybe it's a good thing that the boy is out of the picture. Sometimes those relationships are nothing but excess baggage that really distorts our view of ourselves and the world.
Here's hoping that your newfound freedom and stoke for 2005 sends you off like a rock out of a slingshot!
besides, now that your single we can make out and stuff.