......I went to the tattoo place and was told to go back home,still needs to heal.
Although I got a hug from her cause she was really impressed by her art
..I love it!! Cost me a hand and a leg and maybe a part of my lobe but it was worth the cost. Anyways,I was looking through her portfolio when I spot my friends across the street from this place.Out of all places in the city,they happened to be right there,and I coincidently happened to look their way 
..I wanted to hide.I know ill be talked to for hours on and I had things to do..it was just weird.Sat on a bench till it was clear. Im such a fked up friend,fiancee,stranger arent I?
(act 1,scene 1)
..Been hard on myself lately,and for no good reason. Normally I let things smooth themselves over and I go on with my business but I seem to jump at any thing.Has to be age or pms *checks calender*..I hate being "not a girl not yet a woman" eww no not the song..but i still have my childish times and then I have my mature,wise moments. Let this be a phase.If I self evaluate I will be disappointed in myself.So I wont be doing that yet.
I miss my fiancee,and trust me its been hard being in a relationship where your other half isnt with you physically nor sometimes with you emotionally. Im not alright with our current situation and it sucks cause I love him too much.Im just waiting for him to say..ok Deb,Ill see you next year..maybe. We have so much conflict between us its so unfair.{work,time,countries,etc}Things are easier said than done and I wish it wasnt.
So all that thinking about our future is weighing on my puny head. I cant talk about it so openly because I cant. Im a private person,so me being open about anything takes alot of push and shove to get me to crack..though with that happening ill just get mad. My dog is like that,pet it for a sec then itll snarl at you..dont get too close. This is stupid but I thought it would be best if Rich found some local girl over there,and live his life the way it should be,while he still is young enough to enjoy. Not being selfish there but then it wouldnt be me to say that,to someone ive been close to and love. I just want us both to be happy,not let anything stop us from getting to where we plan on going whether it be careerwise,lifestylewise,whatever...now thats all in seriousness which is rare that I would talk like this in here but its for me,it helps.
(exit stage)
My 4th was nice.Had family and friends over.Wore a skirt like the youngins are wearing and I was tugging the back every time i got up..my gawd how can they wear it like a belt and not feel bothered..if i had an ass maybe but i dont so...i looked decent,whatever.
Saw a few,it was nice that the kids were doing it illegally but heck we wanna celebrate..screw the mayor.
I love the ones that go wrong.You position them down flat..light..and then it finds its way back or near you and *pop* you jump and cuss like some nut.
Good times.Maybe I shoulve stuck one on some ass crack and laugh hysterically,then get chased for doing that. Jackass was brilliant.
Oscar worthy.
Yay,Im going to Atlantic city this weekend. I cant ever get bored with that place.
Go carts,anyone?
Im thinking about changing myself someway..attitude,hair color,style,something. I wanna be a new person,and leave the old me back.Seriously.Where to start?
Although I got a hug from her cause she was really impressed by her art
..I love it!! Cost me a hand and a leg and maybe a part of my lobe but it was worth the cost. Anyways,I was looking through her portfolio when I spot my friends across the street from this place.Out of all places in the city,they happened to be right there,and I coincidently happened to look their way ..I wanted to hide.I know ill be talked to for hours on and I had things to do..it was just weird.Sat on a bench till it was clear. Im such a fked up friend,fiancee,stranger arent I?
(act 1,scene 1)
..Been hard on myself lately,and for no good reason. Normally I let things smooth themselves over and I go on with my business but I seem to jump at any thing.Has to be age or pms *checks calender*..I hate being "not a girl not yet a woman" eww no not the song..but i still have my childish times and then I have my mature,wise moments. Let this be a phase.If I self evaluate I will be disappointed in myself.So I wont be doing that yet.
I miss my fiancee,and trust me its been hard being in a relationship where your other half isnt with you physically nor sometimes with you emotionally. Im not alright with our current situation and it sucks cause I love him too much.Im just waiting for him to say..ok Deb,Ill see you next year..maybe. We have so much conflict between us its so unfair.{work,time,countries,etc}Things are easier said than done and I wish it wasnt.
So all that thinking about our future is weighing on my puny head. I cant talk about it so openly because I cant. Im a private person,so me being open about anything takes alot of push and shove to get me to crack..though with that happening ill just get mad. My dog is like that,pet it for a sec then itll snarl at you..dont get too close. This is stupid but I thought it would be best if Rich found some local girl over there,and live his life the way it should be,while he still is young enough to enjoy. Not being selfish there but then it wouldnt be me to say that,to someone ive been close to and love. I just want us both to be happy,not let anything stop us from getting to where we plan on going whether it be careerwise,lifestylewise,whatever...now thats all in seriousness which is rare that I would talk like this in here but its for me,it helps.
(exit stage)
My 4th was nice.Had family and friends over.Wore a skirt like the youngins are wearing and I was tugging the back every time i got up..my gawd how can they wear it like a belt and not feel bothered..if i had an ass maybe but i dont so...i looked decent,whatever.
Saw a few,it was nice that the kids were doing it illegally but heck we wanna celebrate..screw the mayor.
I love the ones that go wrong.You position them down flat..light..and then it finds its way back or near you and *pop* you jump and cuss like some nut.
Good times.Maybe I shoulve stuck one on some ass crack and laugh hysterically,then get chased for doing that. Jackass was brilliant.
Oscar worthy.
Yay,Im going to Atlantic city this weekend. I cant ever get bored with that place.
Go carts,anyone?
Im thinking about changing myself someway..attitude,hair color,style,something. I wanna be a new person,and leave the old me back.Seriously.Where to start?
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that the you you become is the you you wanna be. and that it's the you your lover wants to be with. my 2 cents worth. do i get any change back?