dominoe

I HAVE O.C.D.!! I dont know if any of you know that Dermatillomania is a form of o.c.d. It is very time consuming and it has recently become a problem in my life. I have had it since about the 2nd grade. When I was younger I used to pick at my head. Throughout the years it has moved to various areas of my body, but the last two years it has been on my feet. the bottom to be exact. Anyways I have somehow managed to make it so some days I cant walk. I wont stop pibking either until my foot is bleeding or my nails break. There are a few reasons this goes on. One being my brain is on crack and wont stop, so when Im sitting or trying to relax, my hands have to keep moving. The other one is stress. I have so much stress its ridiculous. My father died of a heart attack at 47. He was extremely healthy. The doctors related it to his stress and said I am at high risk. So that being said, it made me stress out even more. The last year or so my o.c.d. has come out in full force and I am having a very hard time stopping it. I have been laying in bed the past few weeks, up until 3 or 4 a.m. picking at my feet. Its driving me crazy to the point where I cry but continue to do it. I have been thinking about seeing a therapist again, but unfortunately I dont know if I am ready. If there is anyone out there who knows anything about this I would greatly appreciate the info. The other thing I "forgot" to mention is Dermatillomania is also a form of self mutilation and my family is getting very concerned. They have been witnessing this for years and I am afraid my daughter is going to notice. again any info is much obliged. GRACIAS!!

-Dom