ok ok ok so i know i am horrible and im never on here and i truely suck at being a suicidegirl but damn life is so tough. i am having a massive battle with it. i am an alcoholic and i finally addmitted that my life has become unmangable!! i have been sober 35 days and finally realized that i have done nothing but waste an entire yr of hanging and chatting with you guys to suck down booze. all it got me was an extra 10 pounds and a very ;arge head ache. in truely sorry i havent been here and i hope no one hates me. and im sorry im making excuses but i dunno. life is really hard out here. im a single mom and if anyone reading this is one, then you know how hard it is. plus school and trying to make due with no child support and random jobs isnt really cutting it, especially when i would go to the grocery store to buy milk and realize i only had enough money for booze. you think it would be an easy decision but its not. anywys i hope to hear from you guys. anyone for that matter. and im orry again that it took me so long to get bavk here. i promise im staying sober this time. now all i need to do is get the internet and ill be here wah more often. ciao!!!