dominoe

HOLA!! ok ok ok so i did a very bad thing and i totally need to get spanked!! i instant msged the EX!! dundundun (lights go dim). i know its stupid right. well today is our 7 months or something and i couldnt sleep. so i said hello. he obviously was waiting for it because he wrote back like a paragraph. he knows i always give in first. anyways he has been keeping up with my blogs on here!! ahhhh so he knows how crappy i have bben feeling. i dunno so has he but thats besides the point. i just really needed to tlak to him i guess. so we talked for a while until i got frustrated and ended the convo. we also talked today and it was sorta weird. i guess spring is in the air and i just miss my companion. you know that one person you can call and tell them the dumbest story about how like a bee flew by you ofr somethng lame but they are just as intrested in it as you are. someone who cares about all the little things you do in your life. like blow snot rockets on a car on accident or something. whatever. you can yell at me all you want but i know deep down you guys have all done things like this before. i guess i just dont want to be 30 and still wiondering what would have happened if we talked. i just dont want to be that bitter old prude with 50 cats that smell like piss screaming at all the happy people. i just needed to be sure. and no we arent getting back together. hes still a selfish douche bag and im a raging bitch. so for now its a no go but to be honest, unless one of you are the man of my dreams and come sweep me off my feet.....i really hope him and i can work out one day. not anytime soon....but one day. after ive slept with atleast 50 more people so i can give him hella s.t.ds for making me wait so long.



ciao for now. im going to the movies and bathing suit shopping. ill take pics k!!