Damn it all to hell, this has been one wicked emotional roller coaster the past couple weeks. Lets see.where to start where to start.still moving to Long Beach. The friend I was supposed to move in with there basically took $500 and now wont return my phone calls. FUCKER> Anyway, so now Im looking for an apartment there, which is difficult since Im here.in Delaware3000 miles away. I sent out in a couple applications last week so hopefully Ill hear something back soon. Im starting to get freaked out. I plan on leaving 12/30 and get to Long Beach 1/4/06. So that leaves me about 87 days to get my living arrangements under control.
Then theres men. What can I say? They can be extremely complicated creatures, moreso than women in my opinion. Well, most women anyway. I have the ex husband who is now engaged to some new poor soul, but he is still calling/pestering me, yet he didnt want me when he had me. Then there is the one. <sigh> Two people who were truly made for each other, who fit perfectly together.mentally, physically and emotionally, but we cant be together. I guess thats the nature of the beast. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I think I woudl be ok if I had felt this way before. But I haven't so I don't know how to deal with it. HE is such an amazing person, I feel blessed that he even talks to me let alone likes me.
SO in the midst of all of he shit going on I of course decide to get a new tattoo. I was settled on getting two revolvers on either side of my chest..but a friend suggested I get them on my hips. And I really like that idea. So now Im back to trying to figure out what to get on my chest. Wings are too popular, everyone seems to have the nautical theme too, hmmmmmmmmmmmm, decisions decisions. Suggestions are appreciated!
I gotta get back to being and office zombie!
Then theres men. What can I say? They can be extremely complicated creatures, moreso than women in my opinion. Well, most women anyway. I have the ex husband who is now engaged to some new poor soul, but he is still calling/pestering me, yet he didnt want me when he had me. Then there is the one. <sigh> Two people who were truly made for each other, who fit perfectly together.mentally, physically and emotionally, but we cant be together. I guess thats the nature of the beast. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I think I woudl be ok if I had felt this way before. But I haven't so I don't know how to deal with it. HE is such an amazing person, I feel blessed that he even talks to me let alone likes me.
SO in the midst of all of he shit going on I of course decide to get a new tattoo. I was settled on getting two revolvers on either side of my chest..but a friend suggested I get them on my hips. And I really like that idea. So now Im back to trying to figure out what to get on my chest. Wings are too popular, everyone seems to have the nautical theme too, hmmmmmmmmmmmm, decisions decisions. Suggestions are appreciated!
I gotta get back to being and office zombie!
do you have a tattoo artist in mind for your tat? I just had a memorial script done on my right shoulder for my dad. Ive seen some of the guys other work. fairly cheap but good artist. let me know if you need one. and btw.... hes here in Dover
Feel better.