sigh, god it feels like forever since I've written. I went home to delaware to visit the family. I don't know if it helped or just made me so sad to come back to CA. I miss them so so much. my nephew is 2 now and looks like he is 4. I feel like I'm missing him grow up. Plus, the fact that i have no friends here doesnt help. I mean i have the bf but he is gone....ALOT. He travels all th etime for his job and i get to go visit sometimes, but it still blows. Oh yeah and I dont have a job I forgot about that. I have worked in marketing/admin since I was 17 and I just wan tto do something more fulfilling now. I dont want to be 60 and look back and realize I spent my whole life trying to make money. i want my friend who lived in germany to come live with us. but she wont leave her husband there!!!!!!