I've been feeling very left out and let down lately. It is strange. I don't really know how to handle it. Partially because I don't know if I am actually being left out, or if I am just feeling that way due to extraneous circumstances.
So instead I am trying to keep myself busy, and it is hard. Bah.
I am still getting stuff organized since moving back to my parents house. My room is in complete disaray. Things aren't where they are eventually going to be, and I have no clue where to put them in the mean time. I am taking most of my books out of my room and putting them in the basement because the dust gives me allergies sometimes.
It is nice having my computer up and working in my bedroom. I am just afraid that once my room is set up that I am never going to leave my room.
I put in a bunch of job applications. I need a job. Soon.
My mom told me that once I get a job that they will get me a lap top, as long as I pay it off 100 dollars a month, until I have at least payed of half of it. She said she will get it once I have a downpayment for her. Having a laptop will help SO MUCH with finishing my book. It is so much easier for me to write not at my house. And as nice as hand writing is, it isn't really practical. Not with my hand writing disability, meaning I can only get a few pages done at a time that way. And the more I write, the worse my handwriting gets. It really is pretty ridiculous.
I just wrote one of you a letter. Wait until you get it and try to read it. It should be quite interesting.
One of my best friends and I are starting a burlesque troupe. We are still hammering out the details. One of the things that we don't have yet is a name. I am worried about that. There are so many strong personalities that are getting involved with this that I can't see us all agreeing on anything.
I am doing a two girl act with my friend Lia. We are going to be doing it to the song "Coin Operated Boy" by the Dresden Dolls. She is going to be the boy. It should be pretty hot. I haven't gotten as much coreography down for that as I would like yet, because I haven't been able to spend time with Lia.
Katie and I are going to be doing an act together to a song called Hospital. I don't remember who it is by. She is going to be giving me play piercings during the act, which is pretty cool. And I am going to be wearing pretty much only ace bandages, which she is going to cut off of me. With a pair of EMT scissors that I am inheriting from a friend who approves of stealing from hospitals.
I have a few Ideas for my solo act. But I need to think more about them. I need to think about why I think that they are good Ideas, and if they really are.
So I am heading off soon for a haircut from said Lia and burlesque practice. I have no clue how much we will actually get done, but it should be fun. At least it will be getting out of the house, which I haven't really done much of in the last few days. I think I have been averaging around 18-20 hours of sleep a night/day since probably wednesday. Which falls under the category of "not good."
Oh. I did go see "Idlewild" with my mom yesterday. The OutKast movie. It was SO GOOD. Highly recommend.
So instead I am trying to keep myself busy, and it is hard. Bah.
I am still getting stuff organized since moving back to my parents house. My room is in complete disaray. Things aren't where they are eventually going to be, and I have no clue where to put them in the mean time. I am taking most of my books out of my room and putting them in the basement because the dust gives me allergies sometimes.
It is nice having my computer up and working in my bedroom. I am just afraid that once my room is set up that I am never going to leave my room.
I put in a bunch of job applications. I need a job. Soon.
My mom told me that once I get a job that they will get me a lap top, as long as I pay it off 100 dollars a month, until I have at least payed of half of it. She said she will get it once I have a downpayment for her. Having a laptop will help SO MUCH with finishing my book. It is so much easier for me to write not at my house. And as nice as hand writing is, it isn't really practical. Not with my hand writing disability, meaning I can only get a few pages done at a time that way. And the more I write, the worse my handwriting gets. It really is pretty ridiculous.
I just wrote one of you a letter. Wait until you get it and try to read it. It should be quite interesting.
One of my best friends and I are starting a burlesque troupe. We are still hammering out the details. One of the things that we don't have yet is a name. I am worried about that. There are so many strong personalities that are getting involved with this that I can't see us all agreeing on anything.
I am doing a two girl act with my friend Lia. We are going to be doing it to the song "Coin Operated Boy" by the Dresden Dolls. She is going to be the boy. It should be pretty hot. I haven't gotten as much coreography down for that as I would like yet, because I haven't been able to spend time with Lia.
Katie and I are going to be doing an act together to a song called Hospital. I don't remember who it is by. She is going to be giving me play piercings during the act, which is pretty cool. And I am going to be wearing pretty much only ace bandages, which she is going to cut off of me. With a pair of EMT scissors that I am inheriting from a friend who approves of stealing from hospitals.
I have a few Ideas for my solo act. But I need to think more about them. I need to think about why I think that they are good Ideas, and if they really are.
So I am heading off soon for a haircut from said Lia and burlesque practice. I have no clue how much we will actually get done, but it should be fun. At least it will be getting out of the house, which I haven't really done much of in the last few days. I think I have been averaging around 18-20 hours of sleep a night/day since probably wednesday. Which falls under the category of "not good."
Oh. I did go see "Idlewild" with my mom yesterday. The OutKast movie. It was SO GOOD. Highly recommend.
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morgan:
Hey hon, I'm sorry I didn't see you online last night! AIM wouldn't let me sign on on this computer all day yesterday, plus I think you posted right after I had decided to try and head to bed.
applejugs:
lia as a boy? fucking hot!