dolorian

nothin like some black hair dye, a new tube of red lipstick and sparkly red nail polish to brighten my mood. eh, *gag*. i'm such a girl.
well, stepping on trilo's head for a photo shoot helped too.
i just decided that i can't let my lack 'o funds get me so down. being so stressed about it is just making it harder to find a second job. i get so frustrated and want to give up, when if i would just chill the fuck out, i'd get more accomplished. i was sooo used to being self-sufficiant and financially stable... then i move here and have to borrow money to eat and not be able to buy my own drink. and someone always having to pay my way into things. (which i really appreciate and promise to pay you back, someday) i guess i just don't like to feel like i need anything from anyone. but right now i do.
well.... at least this time my journal wasn't about drinking.