It's Halloween! I hope you have a good day and I hope you have a spooky Halloween! I know I have been away this year, with my job and all, it has been difficult to keep up with my content creating and it sucks!! I wish I had more time for it. Fortunately though, I am now back on Twitch! I am streaming every Sunday at 8pm EST. I stream all kinds of games so be sure to check out my channel! MY TWITCH
I have been feeling like I am not satisfied with myself lately, so that greatly affected my motivation to do any of the stuff I liked to do before. I am attempting to combat that, first by going to the gym again (I am really not happy with how my body has become) and second, I am planning on doing a lot and keep myself busy (my job doesn't count, this is not how I want to keep myself busy).
I am planning on taking some pole dancing lessons (I have a pole at home so I can practise anytime, but I would love to get lessons). First, I need to get fit by training at the gym, so I will be able to lift myself lol
I know I have a new set coming out in 3 months I think, but it has been a long while I haven't done any new sets. I miss shooting with @altstudiocanada and I really want my partner to get into being a SG photographer too (I so want to also be a photographer one day, but for SG, I have no model unfortunately...) Like I said, I have been so dissatisfied with myself and my body that I really don't want to take pictures anymore. But don't worry, I am fixing this soon! I know a lot of people have sent me encouragement words, but this is not about how other people perceive me, it is about how I perceive myself. Probably after feeling better, I will finally get back into modelling again. And do more SG sets. I have tons of ideas for some now, I can't wait to shoot them!
I am excited to be back on Twitch though! I did my first stream in months yesterday for Halloween. And as I said, I am planning to stream every Sunday. I love streaming more than going live here or on OnlyFans. As I love interacting with people, I don't feel any enjoyment doing lives here as people have become super quiet here (with the exception of a few maybe, and maybe now has changed) but at least if nobody interacts with me on Twitch, I am doing something else in the meantime, like playing video games. So, if you want to catch me live ever, it will be on Twitch only!
Wow, I did not expect to write so much, I just wanted to jump on here to tell you I was still alive and planning things, and to tell you happy Halloween.
Oh yeah, about my photobook and that calendar I was planning to finish this year... with my stupid body dismorphia, I put a halt on them as well. But like I said, I am fixing everything that is plaguing me!
Thank you for your support, especially if you are still there even though I have been a really bad content creator recently lol I am trying to do more and to be present.
Happy Halloween again!!!
