dollfacepunk

Yeah so. I hate it when people tell me to go out and do stuff. Like I'm going out of my way not to. And then I sound like an asshole trying to defend myself stating reasons why I can't. I'M JUST A BIG FUCKING LOSER! Didn't you know? If I could help it I wouldn't spend one second in the house. So feel free to make plans with me..or come over or pick me up I don't care. I think I'm just frustrated cause I've been trying to tell my boyfriend that I want an open relationship. But I don't think I'll be able to convince him. Cause after being in a relationship nonstop since I was 15 (not with him) I just wanna see other people. And it's not that I don't love him. Just our situation. It sucks. I never see him. And I feel like an unattractive loser. So I figure if it's acceptable to see other people than I won't run the risk of cheating on him all the time. Alrighty...So nevermind...I just talked to him and he's actually ok with it. So then I guess we'll just see how this works. Wish me luck. I feel like a million pounds is lifted off me now that I was honest with him. P.S. please no comments on how the whole thing doesn't work cause you tried it bla bla...

I like going out. I like being around people. So then I don't have to think about all the shit that I have going on.
And now I just sound like a ranting bitch..blah. Anywho. I'm gonna go eat grapes and have a cigarette, and drink diet coke cause that's my life. Rock on.