Life eh?
Its crazy...
mine has been rather up and down and twisted round about for years now...
things have been hard, really hard....what with the epilepsy stuff and suffering with GAD.....
but I seem to have things under control....
some thing hapen at the start of this year which I cant discuss on here, but which changed me life. I mean truly changed my life. Changed my thoughts and also gave me strength to carry on through it and start again.....but with a different outlook on many things, with a better ability to deal with my GAD as otherwise it owns you, where as at the moment I own it....the bastard!!! Yeah frick you in the eye GAD! You suck!...
then I started seeing the most amazing person....someone I had known but would never have thought looked at me in that way..which is ironic...yes yes I was a nightmare for a while, not wanting to commit (oh the humour to that statement now) for a long time.....due to the previous terrible ending to mine n Jase's sham of a relationship..why oh why have a dated so many dick heads? My mum kept saying you have to kiss a frog to find a prince but seriously...how many bloody frogs!!! Obviously not counting some guys, who are awesome, and still friends, whom I love dearly!!.. I wanted fun, and frolics and things to take my mind off what had happened for a while....and yes I got drunk too much and did not look after myslef, and fitted a bit....
but hey sometimes you have to let your hair down to get through it all....
and now....
I am with my best friend....
the person I want to spend my time with....
and I am working....and just spoke to the lady bout horse job, hopefully stating that next week too!!!
and I am happy...
and I have the best friends around me.............!!!!
I love my life, I love living here, as I was leaving at one point....to start again somewhere you...
but apparently sometimes perseverence pays off eh???
xxx
Its crazy...
mine has been rather up and down and twisted round about for years now...
things have been hard, really hard....what with the epilepsy stuff and suffering with GAD.....
but I seem to have things under control....
some thing hapen at the start of this year which I cant discuss on here, but which changed me life. I mean truly changed my life. Changed my thoughts and also gave me strength to carry on through it and start again.....but with a different outlook on many things, with a better ability to deal with my GAD as otherwise it owns you, where as at the moment I own it....the bastard!!! Yeah frick you in the eye GAD! You suck!...
then I started seeing the most amazing person....someone I had known but would never have thought looked at me in that way..which is ironic...yes yes I was a nightmare for a while, not wanting to commit (oh the humour to that statement now) for a long time.....due to the previous terrible ending to mine n Jase's sham of a relationship..why oh why have a dated so many dick heads? My mum kept saying you have to kiss a frog to find a prince but seriously...how many bloody frogs!!! Obviously not counting some guys, who are awesome, and still friends, whom I love dearly!!.. I wanted fun, and frolics and things to take my mind off what had happened for a while....and yes I got drunk too much and did not look after myslef, and fitted a bit....
but hey sometimes you have to let your hair down to get through it all....
and now....
I am with my best friend....
the person I want to spend my time with....
and I am working....and just spoke to the lady bout horse job, hopefully stating that next week too!!!
and I am happy...
and I have the best friends around me.............!!!!
I love my life, I love living here, as I was leaving at one point....to start again somewhere you...
but apparently sometimes perseverence pays off eh???
xxx
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Oh well well done you for dealing wih it. I get social anxiety a lot, meeting new people scares the living shit out of me, so i can kind of understand on a small level what that must be like.