Does it frustrate the hell out of anyone else to be able to give advice that perfectly fits what you should do in your own personal situation, yet you can't bring yourself to follow your own advice? I hate, beyond anything else on this planet, the feeling of being weak or vulnerable. I do not know what The Ex does to me...maybe it really is...
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Mr. Man today told me he was going to leave his woman for me. I told him to put his money where his mouth was- that actions spoke louder than words. Do I think he'll actually do it? No. Does it bother me? No.
Actually, the most drama that happened today occured when my wonderful ex decided to oversleep, miss his ride, and not call...
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Actually, the most drama that happened today occured when my wonderful ex decided to oversleep, miss his ride, and not call...
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ladyaurale:
Yes yes pics of you too :p
Hey when you take over the world can I have a palace with a dungeon filled with hot goth boys and girls? Oh and can they all be bi so we can have orgies?
Yeah yeah yeah I just woke up and had strange dreams sue me.
Banks suck rockers. Let you're parents kick their asses.
Hey when you take over the world can I have a palace with a dungeon filled with hot goth boys and girls? Oh and can they all be bi so we can have orgies?
Yeah yeah yeah I just woke up and had strange dreams sue me.
Banks suck rockers. Let you're parents kick their asses.
ironbhr:
i agree with my girl fiesty seems to fit you....and yes money issues are a good way to ruin your day. i've been dealing with some towards the end of the week, blowing all my good mood...that better change quick i've got someone to keep happy next weekend. but i digress....court is a good way to throw things around...makes people think about just how far you mean to go. generally it's all the way.
i love the way the former boy is trying to pin stuff on you...stay strong and when i'm elected tyrant i'll put in a good word for ya....
i love the way the former boy is trying to pin stuff on you...stay strong and when i'm elected tyrant i'll put in a good word for ya....
Hello everyone!
Today was a much more mellow day for me, thankfully! I didn't have to go on any warpaths or stab anyone in the jugular vein with my pen. Hell, I didn't even have to smoke a half a pack of cigarettes like I did yesterday. All in all, it was a very slow, routine day. After yesterday, that's definitely what I needed.
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Today was a much more mellow day for me, thankfully! I didn't have to go on any warpaths or stab anyone in the jugular vein with my pen. Hell, I didn't even have to smoke a half a pack of cigarettes like I did yesterday. All in all, it was a very slow, routine day. After yesterday, that's definitely what I needed.
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ash:
of course they were all hot men, would you have it any other way? 
ironbhr:
what? no random body count? you're letting us down! remember you don't want to hurt anybody...cause if they're hurt they're still breathing...and that ain't good enough!
what a day! Just when I think I am finally getting my shit back in order, something fucking ridiculous happens and my world fucks up all over again! Without fail, I can guarantee that just when I finally feel on top of things, someone will come along and pull the fucking rug from beneath my feet and I fall right back into all the drama....
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ironbhr:
yeah we can stay with us...
i know what you mean about raising someone you're going out with, my last long term relationship ended because the girl didn't have the sense to follow the advice she asked for. it was also my example of not fooling around with a co-worker. to think that she though she could tell me "no" and i was her manager.
so i understand what you're going through...a relationship like a herion addiction....feels so good but at the same time is so bad for ya. i've been there and have the scars (menta, physical and emotional) to prove it. hang in there, it'll be okay.
i know what you mean about raising someone you're going out with, my last long term relationship ended because the girl didn't have the sense to follow the advice she asked for. it was also my example of not fooling around with a co-worker. to think that she though she could tell me "no" and i was her manager.
so i understand what you're going through...a relationship like a herion addiction....feels so good but at the same time is so bad for ya. i've been there and have the scars (menta, physical and emotional) to prove it. hang in there, it'll be okay.
ladyaurale:
Okay I'm starting to truely believe that men suck :p I'm so sorry you had a horrid night. I hope things get better and you find someone to make you happy. Oh and take every damn break you have with that fuck nugget from hell, and call his cell phone every other hour and leave hot steamy messages just to fuck with him. Okay yes that sounds sick but I hate men who pull that shit they deserve to get caught. You're not the whore he is and with any luck his wife will bobbitize his ass.
I'm feeling better today. It took me a couple of days of feeling like utter shit to finally recover. Now I'm totally just allergies, which is good, because they make over the counter meds for that. 
Anyway, I'm doing better all the way around, I think. I've gotten out of the house and on the prowl a little bit, which was fun and good. I...
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Anyway, I'm doing better all the way around, I think. I've gotten out of the house and on the prowl a little bit, which was fun and good. I...
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ironbhr:
1. hood of my car in a parking lot....after a few small ones she came conisiding with a big flash of lighting and thunder clap...tre cool
2. shaved my chest....now it's thicker
3. sleep...i'm even more of a bear with out it
2. shaved my chest....now it's thicker
3. sleep...i'm even more of a bear with out it
delirium_faerie:
1. the back porch in the rain. my back hurt. i rubbed it raw. but the rain and being outside rocked.
2. i hate waxing. i never get very far when i try. i probably dye my hair too much.
3. too much. i'm way too materialistic.
2. i hate waxing. i never get very far when i try. i probably dye my hair too much.
3. too much. i'm way too materialistic.
OK ya'll. I'm sick, tired, and can't sleep. This is one of those nights where all I want is someone to cuddle with me and baby me because I am really feeling under the weather and down in the dumps. Allergies kicked in, and I think I might have a good spring cold on top of it. My whole body aches and my throat hurts....
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loismustdie:
sorry hon...
hope you feel better soon...
hope you feel better soon...
ironbhr:
when i work too much i get physically ill...ill of mind and spirit is the worst to heal from...
I am surviving my alone-ness thus far, thankfully. It's not quite as bad as I thought it would be.
Jeez, I have such a lot of stuff I have to do...cleaning and rearranging and all that good stuff now that all of his things and furniture is gone. It's weird.
I have guy friends coming out of the woodwork, it seems, to tell me that...
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Jeez, I have such a lot of stuff I have to do...cleaning and rearranging and all that good stuff now that all of his things and furniture is gone. It's weird.
I have guy friends coming out of the woodwork, it seems, to tell me that...
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ironbhr:
what am i getting into? she loved every class? damn...
1.mom's teryiki flank steak...melt in your mouth goodness (recipe is available if wanted)
2. nope but too many sprains...both ankles..right wrist..and a rib!
3. art and history....anything that left me alone and let me argue...everything else is just facts and figures....hated english..mom taught it, she was always correcting me....
1.mom's teryiki flank steak...melt in your mouth goodness (recipe is available if wanted)
2. nope but too many sprains...both ankles..right wrist..and a rib!
3. art and history....anything that left me alone and let me argue...everything else is just facts and figures....hated english..mom taught it, she was always correcting me....
delirium_faerie:
1. What is your favorite food?
i don't really know. it all depends on my mood. i'm very into cake though, and my black bean burritos.
2. How many broken bones have you had and what were they?
none, although i have had a stress fracture in my shin
3. What was your favorite subject in high school or college?
high school=art
college=mythology, herbalism, art history, writing workshops
i don't really know. it all depends on my mood. i'm very into cake though, and my black bean burritos.
2. How many broken bones have you had and what were they?
none, although i have had a stress fracture in my shin
3. What was your favorite subject in high school or college?
high school=art
college=mythology, herbalism, art history, writing workshops
As you can see, my profile has changed slightly. I went to the doctor the other day for a check-up (which went very well, I'll discuss below) and found I grew 2 inches (yay!). I thought I was all finished growing and was meant to be a shorty, but surprise surprise! I must admit I had begun to wonder why my friends who used to...
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angel:
WHy thank you for saying so!
loismustdie:
i started answering your questions but then aol shut down on me... i'll try again later... i'm too irritated right now...
I think I'm going to write a book about my drivers. Actually, I think I'm going to write a book about my thoughts on everything...and I do mean everything. I do these personal journal entries at home that are like "me on...graduation, college, getting up before daylight, etc etc etc"...I think I just need to compile it all and make a book.
I wonder, though,...
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samanthakayne:
you day evil like it's a bad thing... lol!
you should come out to CO. it's a great place to be - look how happy i am... though i'd happily give CT a try right now...
1. to destress... cumming is always good. i like shopping, too, but the inevitable guilt that follows isn't much fun. same with eating too much chocolate
2. real world on mtv. tcby shivers. waking up with still smelling like come
3. read or bake.
take care of you, hot stuff.
you should come out to CO. it's a great place to be - look how happy i am... though i'd happily give CT a try right now...
1. to destress... cumming is always good. i like shopping, too, but the inevitable guilt that follows isn't much fun. same with eating too much chocolate
2. real world on mtv. tcby shivers. waking up with still smelling like come
3. read or bake.
take care of you, hot stuff.
wofats:
I guess I'm kinda easy... for all three, I smoke weed and touch it...
Hey guess what I'm doing now!? ;-)
Hey guess what I'm doing now!? ;-)
Question for the day: How do you feel about "late night friends"....you know, people you can turn to for sex without strings attached and still be friends with them?
I know several very strong, independant women who keep these sort of friends around. They dont' want husbands, they don't want boyfriends, they don't want dinner and a movie, but they do want that hair pulling,...
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I know several very strong, independant women who keep these sort of friends around. They dont' want husbands, they don't want boyfriends, they don't want dinner and a movie, but they do want that hair pulling,...
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samanthakayne:
i'm all for that kind of arrangement, frankly, as long as it's honest and up front and what both people want...
there have definitely been times in my life where i've taken advantage of it.
there have definitely been times in my life where i've taken advantage of it.
Ok, so I have this guy friend who's supposed to be calling me when he gets off work to go hang out for a bit. Should I go? Should I stay home? Trials and tribulations. The ex is here tonight, but we aren't talking too much, so I think I might go.
I wish we could just make this as amicable as possible. The more...
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The ex is here tonight, but we aren't talking too much, so I think I might go.
I wish we could just make this as amicable as possible. The more...
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delirium_faerie:
you can have all the warm weather we were having. it's lovely here now though. nice and cool!
do whatever you feel right with in your heart. do whatever you won't regret later.
do whatever you feel right with in your heart. do whatever you won't regret later.
loismustdie:
it's gonna be 90 here by the end of the week, so you should be getting some heat...
and, you need to stay away from your guy for a while... you guy's will not accomplish anything if you spend all your "time apart" fighting...
and, you need to stay away from your guy for a while... you guy's will not accomplish anything if you spend all your "time apart" fighting...
Question for the day: What would the background music to your life be?
Mine would probably be something smooth and blues-y. I don't listen really to anything blues like, but I just think that music kind of fits with my life. Everything for me is so fast paced, but really, I'd like to just be cool and mellow. Some of my music though, would have...
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Mine would probably be something smooth and blues-y. I don't listen really to anything blues like, but I just think that music kind of fits with my life. Everything for me is so fast paced, but really, I'd like to just be cool and mellow. Some of my music though, would have...
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ironbhr:
my soundtrack would be the afghan whigs' gentlemen album. maybe some john lee hooker...don't know...depends on the mood
samanthakayne:
hmm... background music to my life? well, see, i've got this set of a dozen cd's that have been the only thing i've been listenin' to lately, so i might have to go with those. am i allowed to choose that many? there's really a little bit of everything...
seriously, it's so hard... there's at least a full album for every moment that passes, ya know?
and i totally hear you on the girlie stuff. i mean, i was worried that i was gettin to be high maintenance when i started wearing make-up at all, lol. but then i look at the girls who clearly fall into your 'five hours to go to wal-mart' category and don't feel the least bit bad about my 10 mins to do full makeup, lol.
can't wait to see pics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seriously, it's so hard... there's at least a full album for every moment that passes, ya know?
and i totally hear you on the girlie stuff. i mean, i was worried that i was gettin to be high maintenance when i started wearing make-up at all, lol. but then i look at the girls who clearly fall into your 'five hours to go to wal-mart' category and don't feel the least bit bad about my 10 mins to do full makeup, lol.
can't wait to see pics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if you need loving find someone outside of work...it works for me...
first - what the fuck are you doing in tennessee? you need to be somewhere where you'll be appreciated...
okay, with a little more focus here. to be completely honest, there's nothing wrong with your worker boy havin this other commitment. in some ways, it shows that he's a caring, reasonably committed to doing the right thing kind of a guy. that said - he's also prob right in the middle of a lot more chaos than you realistically want right now, i'd imagine. mind you, it might be worth it for the lay, but it seems like it's takin up an awful lot of your time and energy that you could be devoting to you...
now... in regards to the other boy. damn, that one's much harder, even from the outside, you realize? sometimes you end up bound to someone, and maybe it's good for them, who knows, but it's definitely not good for you. does that motivate you to get out? only something less than about half the time somehow. i really wish i had something better to offer, but... you're a smart and beautiful girl, and when the times comes to make a choice, i know you'll make the one that's right for you.
until then, enjoy your friends and your life and figure out what it is that you want... otherwise you won't know it when you see it.