Well, things are still fucked up, but they're going a little better. I haven't completely unpacked my suitcase, but I have almost talked myself all the way out of leaving. Problems will be problems anywhere, I might as well face mine in a place where I have family and friends (and an internet connection to get to my really good friends-you guys).
Married guy apologized...
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shmidol:
Hello neighbor! I just moved from Lebanon! I love that town.
abadinfluence:
Amsterdam sounds abalutely perfect. ... but that means we'll haveta swim across the Ocean. You can swim, right?
This weekend was such an incredible Fuck up. I can't believe I am as gullible as I am sometimes...all of the recent people to waltz into my life...played me so fast and so hard that I really am still not quite sure what hit me. And out of it all, I realized how much I really do love my ex...and how much explaining I now...
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samanthakayne:
woo hoo!
ash:
Oh dear ~soothes the dollbaby~ I wish we could go have a girls night out together, I would take that pain away and give it my karate style. 
I go thru that same feelin every couple of weeks or so .. I just wanna leave leave LEAVE this fucking hell hole! But its only a matter of time before your escape becomes your NEW hellhole. It follows u wherever u go.
If u wanna talk thru IM, my aol and yahoo name is code rabies (both with a space in between I think)
and u are the ONLY person to guess that Im not afriad of spiders ... but I SOOOO AM!!
I go thru that same feelin every couple of weeks or so .. I just wanna leave leave LEAVE this fucking hell hole! But its only a matter of time before your escape becomes your NEW hellhole. It follows u wherever u go.
If u wanna talk thru IM, my aol and yahoo name is code rabies (both with a space in between I think)
and u are the ONLY person to guess that Im not afriad of spiders ... but I SOOOO AM!!
Hey guys, sorry it's taken me a few days to update. Life has been kinda hectic. Problems at work...not with me personally, but I have to pick up the slack. Anyway, I hope you all have had a wonderful last few days.
I haven't had the very best last couple days, but I had a fantastic night last night. New-New-Boy came over after work and...
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I haven't had the very best last couple days, but I had a fantastic night last night. New-New-Boy came over after work and...
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samanthakayne:
in the fridge? yowza, chiquita, i'm not that much of a masochist!!! so far, baby lotion is being good to me - and i'm gonna go grab some aloe in a bit. 
happy birthday sex to you!!!
damn, now if only i could've watched.
oh - did i say that out loud? lol.
good for you, babe, good for you. wish i could see you while i'm on this side of the country, but i'm not seein any way to swing it.
so far, baby lotion is being good to me - and i'm gonna go grab some aloe in a bit.
happy birthday sex to you!!!
damn, now if only i could've watched.
oh - did i say that out loud? lol.
good for you, babe, good for you. wish i could see you while i'm on this side of the country, but i'm not seein any way to swing it.
ladyaurale:
When do you wanna get the bed? 
It's my 21st birthday!! Happy birthday to me, happy birthday too me!!
I stopped at the gas station on my way home from work and bought my first alcoholic beverage...well, definitely not my FIRST alcoholic beverage...just the first I've purchased for myself. It was great. Little things in life thrill me and that definitely did.
I'm not really celebrating much this weekend, but I'm having...
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I stopped at the gas station on my way home from work and bought my first alcoholic beverage...well, definitely not my FIRST alcoholic beverage...just the first I've purchased for myself. It was great. Little things in life thrill me and that definitely did.
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samanthakayne:
happy happy bday - lady!
smooches!
smooches!
ironbhr:
ah...drunken debauchery....happy 21st 
Hey everybody!
What's going on in all of the lives of the coolest people I know? I was thinking earlier at work how cool all of you that I talk to and read about on here are. There are a few of you that know more about what is currently going on in my life than my best friend. Thanks for all the love and...
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What's going on in all of the lives of the coolest people I know? I was thinking earlier at work how cool all of you that I talk to and read about on here are. There are a few of you that know more about what is currently going on in my life than my best friend. Thanks for all the love and...
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abadinfluence:
If it makes you feel any better at all ... I'll smoke a birthday joint in your honor.
And ... uhh ... you're from Lennon's hometown if I remember correctly ... were you a member of her forum at all?
And ... uhh ... you're from Lennon's hometown if I remember correctly ... were you a member of her forum at all?
ironbhr:
happy birthday to you! happy birthday to you! you're another year older, get used to it to! >sung to the basic happy birthday tune<
Oh what a weekend! I went to the mall Saturday with a girl friend of mine, then returned to her place with the intention to unwind with a few beers before going home. I had a driver at work who wanted to be the first person to buy me a drink for my birthday, and lucky for me, he was smart enough to realize that...
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samanthakayne:
damn, chica. at first i thought you needed a chaperone (i did sat night, lol) but now i'm thinkin you just need a camera crew!
loismustdie:
can't wait to see you!!!
Hey ya'll...
Still feeling pretty crappy due to the cramps and a horrendous headache...but hey...I'm not pregnant!! *Sigh of relief*
I need a backrub now. The sunburn faded, so now I just need a good massage. Still lookin for takers.
I went to the mall today with my girl friend. Didn't do much shopping, though. Just a strapless bra and some new tongue rings. I...
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Still feeling pretty crappy due to the cramps and a horrendous headache...but hey...I'm not pregnant!!
*Sigh of relief*
I need a backrub now. The sunburn faded, so now I just need a good massage. Still lookin for takers.
I went to the mall today with my girl friend. Didn't do much shopping, though. Just a strapless bra and some new tongue rings. I...
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ladyaurale:
Cure for cramps... SEX!
Yes yes seriously... anyways gimme a dingle and we'll go out for a bite and some drinks for your birthday
Yes yes seriously... anyways gimme a dingle and we'll go out for a bite and some drinks for your birthday
ironbhr:
yeah..what my girl said....about the postcards...besides i like sending stuff to. hell i made her twelve mix cds, and a ring before i even thought of going to see her. just some of the stuff that i do for those how ask or that i have a reason to send for...i.e. birthdays, weddings, births...whatever...
oh and cramps do suck. yes i've had them, just not that variety.
oh and cramps do suck. yes i've had them, just not that variety.
Today was a strange day. I got to work and my boss looks at me and says "I need to see you in my office. You have three minutes." Immediately, my hyper-anxiety-induced worries begin. I rush in there only for him to hand me my offer letter and my benefits package. So all that freaking out just to find out I'm FINALLY a full-time, benefitted...
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belllla:
That first paragraph COMPLETELY reminded me of myself. I ALWAYS jump to the worst possible conclusion. Congrats on going legit at your job though. Good for you!
Now the period thing . . . until last year I used to have relatively regular periods. Now they come once every 8 weeks, once every 3 weeks . . . whenever they please! I completely understand the stress thing. It's such a downward spiral!!!
Every time I used to quit smoking it would be "for the most part." I totally feel you on those special blend Camels. Mmmm mmmm!!!
Now the period thing . . . until last year I used to have relatively regular periods. Now they come once every 8 weeks, once every 3 weeks . . . whenever they please! I completely understand the stress thing. It's such a downward spiral!!!
Every time I used to quit smoking it would be "for the most part." I totally feel you on those special blend Camels. Mmmm mmmm!!!
ironbhr:
nothing like beni's!
stress fucks with us guys and our cycles to...not that we bleed, but we're moody bitches most of the time too...not that we admitt it
nothing like drinking and smoking thank god that you can still do it down there..up here the conservatives nixed all the fun shit...hell they want to put a six foot distance between us and our strippers...as my friends and i say "let's go do it befroe the christian coalition comes and shits on all our fun"
stress fucks with us guys and our cycles to...not that we bleed, but we're moody bitches most of the time too...not that we admitt it
nothing like drinking and smoking thank god that you can still do it down there..up here the conservatives nixed all the fun shit...hell they want to put a six foot distance between us and our strippers...as my friends and i say "let's go do it befroe the christian coalition comes and shits on all our fun"
Well ladies and gentlemen...I am making my triumphant return...relaxed and stress free for the moment. My weekend was nice...much of what I expected- shopping, drinking, and speaking Spanish. I think I have a permanent hispanic accent now. My uncle's family is from Nicaragua, and only a few of them speak English, so I got to work on my 5 years of Spanish. My grandmother outfitted...
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My weekend was nice...much of what I expected- shopping, drinking, and speaking Spanish. I think I have a permanent hispanic accent now. My uncle's family is from Nicaragua, and only a few of them speak English, so I got to work on my 5 years of Spanish. My grandmother outfitted... Read More
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ladyaurale:
Just let me know when you have some free time I'm pretty much free all summer! *go teacher stuff!*
ironbhr:
glad to hear everything is finally looking up for ya...
fav. movie quote:
"you can't win all the time but you can't lose forever"
hey find me a job...
fav. movie quote:
"you can't win all the time but you can't lose forever"
hey find me a job...
Woo hoo!!!! Packed and ready to go! I have to be at the airport at 6 am. My flight leaves at 7:30. By noon, I'll be drinking a Yuengling by the pool, or hell, in the pool. I hope you all realize how desperately I needed this vacation! The insanity of what I have been putting up with over the last few weeks has finally...
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samanthakayne:
i hope you have a wonderful wonderful weekend - i know i will!
enjoy this, you've so earned it.
enjoy this, you've so earned it.
belllla:
Hope your trip is great!
Openess...I've always been a very open person. I think, like ironbhr said in his comment to my journal entry yesterday, that being open is the best way to be confident. Without hiding things, you are the truest to yourself. I'm not saying I'm open about everything to everybody...we all have fears and secrets that we keep buried...but for the most part, I'm an open book...
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loismustdie:
2 words...
stay away!!!
enjoyed chatting with you yesterday...
you've got me looking forward to thrift store shopping!!!
stay away!!!
enjoyed chatting with you yesterday...
you've got me looking forward to thrift store shopping!!!
samanthakayne:
hey kiddo - sounds great. my off-sg email is SamanthaKayne@hotmail.com so catch me there in the next couple and we'll figure it out.
When you think of independence or strength, what comes to mind? Standing up for yourself? Supporting yourself mentally, physically and emotionally? What defines someone as "strong" or "independent"?
I'd like to think of myself as strong. I'd like to think of myself as independent. As I try to put the pieces of my life back in place, I have begun to realize just how much...
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I'd like to think of myself as strong. I'd like to think of myself as independent. As I try to put the pieces of my life back in place, I have begun to realize just how much...
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ash:
Im jealous, I wish someone would offer me some deal like that. Maybe we look alike and I can pass for you ... just show up and your grandmas house and be all like "omg grandama , I had plastic surgery" or some crap.
Thanks for the sweet words, Im over the bday thing. Im not even sure if thats what really upset me or not.
The truth is ... you are strong and you are weak. You are dependant and independant. It all has to do with the time of day, whether or not you eat linguini, and what exactly it is thats going on in your life at the time. Im strong when it comes to barfights, but weak when it comes to saying no to illegal things. Its a tossup. Fair trade. I think?
Thanks for the sweet words, Im over the bday thing. Im not even sure if thats what really upset me or not.
The truth is ... you are strong and you are weak. You are dependant and independant. It all has to do with the time of day, whether or not you eat linguini, and what exactly it is thats going on in your life at the time. Im strong when it comes to barfights, but weak when it comes to saying no to illegal things. Its a tossup. Fair trade. I think?
ironbhr:
yeungling lager rocks!!! i bought a case of bottles to g=come home with me when i was driving through pa on my way home from texas.
there is something very strong about leaving yourself open. if you give of yourself freely, no one can take it away from you. ever.
there is something very strong about leaving yourself open. if you give of yourself freely, no one can take it away from you. ever.