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three songs summing me up perfectly at the moment.
i miss my boyfriend. i'm tired of being patient. i need sleep, i can't seem to get any. i can't find any peace, i'm anxious and an ever nagging emptiness grips me. i'm so close to profound completion, yet i'm not where i need to be. it's torture knowing the place i long for is just there, out of reach, for a bit longer, waiting for me. i want his arms around me. i want to never have to toss and turn, reaching out for him, and finding nothing but an empty bed. i want to wake to see his face swathed in golden sunlight, and know, that if we want, we can spend all day in bed, or laying in the grass beneath a shade tree.

"Madness fills my heart and soul as if the great divide could swallow me whole
oh, how I'm breaking down"


"Finally I could hope for a better day. No longer holding on to all the things that cloud my mind. Maybe then the weight of the world wouldn't feel so heavy. But then again, i'll probably always feel this way."
"Maybe then I could sleep tonight, I wouldn't lie awake until the morning light. This is something I'll never control, my nerves will be the death of me, I know."


"I can hear my train comin' It's a lonesome and distant cry
I can hear my train comin' Now I'm runnin' for my life
What makes a man walk away from his mind?
I think I know
I think I might know"