About 10 hours sleep in about 4 or 5 nights.
I'm fed up.
Laura thinks there's a something wrong with me physically.
Truth is I'm always like this around this time of year.
I get to thinking about things in the run up to christmas, what would it be like if certain people were still around, what would it be like if i had done things differently... The usual lol.
Thing on my mind mostly is, I wonder what christmas would be like if my daughter were still here.
Yep, you read it right.
I can't actually believe I'm sitting typing this into my blog for all the world to read!
Had a fling with an older woman (just by a bit mind lol) when I was younger which resulted in her having a baby on New Years night. Unfortunately we had split up by this point but were still on speaking terms (but it somehow felt odd as it felt as though there was something she was holding back - which I later found out about lol) I didn't actually find out about the baby until I rang her up on New Years day to have her mother start shouting down the phone at me about what I had done to her daughter.
Like I say, she gave birth New Years night, shortly after midnight if I remember rightly, but there was a problem, she was born with just one lung and her heart wasn't working correctly.
The hospital tried everything they could to save her, but by the Wednesday she was dead. Wednesday the 5th Jan.
Phew, sorry if that's depressed you, it certainly depressed me! And believe me, the story gets a lot more twisted from that point on, I will however, save that for another time! Let's get back to what I started talking about before going off on a tangent...
The silly thing (and quite upsetting thing for me) is the fact that before Laura went out to work this morning we were lying talking about things and she was coming up with ideas about why I'm not sleeping at the minute. Laurie-Jo (my daughter) didn't actually come into my mind until about halfway through the conversation.
Take care y'all
DoK
xxx
I'm fed up.
Laura thinks there's a something wrong with me physically.
Truth is I'm always like this around this time of year.
I get to thinking about things in the run up to christmas, what would it be like if certain people were still around, what would it be like if i had done things differently... The usual lol.
Thing on my mind mostly is, I wonder what christmas would be like if my daughter were still here.
Yep, you read it right.
I can't actually believe I'm sitting typing this into my blog for all the world to read!
Had a fling with an older woman (just by a bit mind lol) when I was younger which resulted in her having a baby on New Years night. Unfortunately we had split up by this point but were still on speaking terms (but it somehow felt odd as it felt as though there was something she was holding back - which I later found out about lol) I didn't actually find out about the baby until I rang her up on New Years day to have her mother start shouting down the phone at me about what I had done to her daughter.
Like I say, she gave birth New Years night, shortly after midnight if I remember rightly, but there was a problem, she was born with just one lung and her heart wasn't working correctly.
The hospital tried everything they could to save her, but by the Wednesday she was dead. Wednesday the 5th Jan.
Phew, sorry if that's depressed you, it certainly depressed me! And believe me, the story gets a lot more twisted from that point on, I will however, save that for another time! Let's get back to what I started talking about before going off on a tangent...
The silly thing (and quite upsetting thing for me) is the fact that before Laura went out to work this morning we were lying talking about things and she was coming up with ideas about why I'm not sleeping at the minute. Laurie-Jo (my daughter) didn't actually come into my mind until about halfway through the conversation.
Take care y'all
DoK
xxx
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