doineanta

Why is it that I become a social retard whenever I am talking to someone that does really cool work. Like I can't fucking say anything funny or clever or sarcastic the way I usually do. And even when I get drunk I just get worse. Its pretty lame. I am supposed to give a friend of mine some of my short videos so that he can do some original music...this is sooo fucking cool of him. However, here's a perfect example of me becoming a social retard. I mean to discuss things, all sorts of things with him. But I just...grrr..i dunno what happens. This happened last night after I went to his show. So then I put my drunk self into a cab and went home.




So I was planning on taking this years Halloween off...mainly cause my boyfriend took a shift at his bar and now I dont have a boy scout to go with my brownie. Im mad, but he needs the money. So i was just going to pout all night. But then last night I ran into some friends who got me all excited, so today I have to go get a costume. If I can even FIND a brownie costume now, the fucking day before. I always do this. Then after that, I have to go get some knee socks and then I have to get a haircut, then I have to go home and dye my knee socks in some tea to make them match my costume. Then I have to start packing my shit. Then I have to decided wether or not to go out tonight.

Tomorrow I want to go to the bar and see my friends and the Halloween coostume contest and keep my boyfriend from killing people because thats probably the most annoying night he works, it's right up there with New Years Eve. Oh and I also want to go see Corn Mo play too. Soo much to do!

But I was telling myself this last night...I wont see these people for a long time so I should go out and enjoy it while I can.

In case I forgot to mention I'm leaving NYC real soon. I'll keep you posted.