dodraibeid

Let me just tell you how much I hate insomnia.

You lay down in bed and close your eyes. This is the part where the falling asleep should happen, but it doesn't. You adjust your position a little, still not quite right. So you roll over completely. That's not right either so you play the adjusting game a little bit, then you realize that it just isn't working. You get up and have a smoke. Go back to bed, start the whole thing over.

It's too hot. Turn on the fan. It's too cold. Turn it off. Maybe you'll watch a movie.

Halfway through the movie and you're no closer to sleep than you were an hour ago. Turn off the movie. Toss, turn, toss, turn for another half hour. Try choking yourself out. You know it's impossible, but maybe you can do it. No good. Look over at the clock, and God dammit, it's 4:30 and your eyelids aren't even heavy. You decie to lay there, perfectly still, eyes closed, and wait for sleep. Wait for a half hour. Look at the clock. 4:31. Fuck. Get up, whine about it in your blog for a bit, then maybe sleep will come, but I doubt it...