docturnal

i don't see the point of posting unless i have somthing interesting or enlightening to say. nor do i wish to bore you with my personal problems; however, today and the past few in general have given me a personal carte blanche to allow me to rant on both.

vaguely, i have some really stupid issues to deal with right now. (all my fault or at least mostly) they have brought me closer to my family and friends, so i shall deal with and embrace them.......however, in a recent discusion with pops it was brought to my attention, that i presently am and have wasted a lot of potential..........initially i agreed, then the supposdly rusty wheels spun.

by wasting potential did he mean making ass loads of money that i would never spend or spend frivolously?
then yes
did he mean owning a home in the burbs or a condo uptown wih a cardboard wife with no personality and a drive towards some meaningless goal?
then yes
did he mean not applying my skills and imagination to help benefit society and mankind in general?
then yes (i may actually be guilty of this one, but i do at least a part of my share)

i agreed without fulling thinking about exactly what fulfilling my potential actually meant.

yes there are a lot of things that i can and by societies standards should be doing; however, i have lead a full life, have had many great experiences, and have gotten to know extraordinary and interesting people along the way. "regular people", politicians, "stars," atheletes, scientists.

i, live humbly, yet comfortably, manage to have a great time and love to spread that joy around. i love my family, my friends, have traveled at least one hemisphere of the world and am ignorant in no way, shape or form. except for a few instances, there ae no aspects of my life that i regret or would like to change.

so my question is, exactly what is potential wasted.

i'm done...............for now.