doctorruthless

So, it hasn't even been a month into residency yet, and already I have a massive crush on one of the attending physicians I work with. So unprofessional :-( Dr. Ruthless worries he will catch her staring at him one of these days! Ah well, soon I will be moving on to a different location and hopefully this infatuation will ease up a little. It's nice to have the hots for someone, though. Especially someone in a position of authority over me (Secretary is, like, one of my top ten favorite films). What would Freud say about that??

Not that I'd EVER do anything about it. I would never. And anyway, I'm taken. But if I can't talk about fantasizing about somebody here, then where can I? I just love a man in a button-down dress shirt and tie. In my mind I start undressing him, but little by little. Like an inch each day.... maybe one day I get a glimpse of his forearm and imagine he'd roll up his sleeves. The next day I wonder if he has hair on his chest. How much? A little? A lot? Does he wear boxers? I'm betting he does. What would it feel like to kiss him? He has some facial hair, I'm not used to that but I love how it feels, from what I remember. He has a bit of a tummy, I love that...it means he will not be some self-obsessed model-type. It means he may be a bit shy to be naked. I just love that. It's those shy guys that go totally wild once you've made them trust you completely. His arms look strong, how strong are they? I imagine him pinning me against a wall with those arms....What shall I imagine tomorrow?

Is he gay? Why doesn't he wear a wedding ring?

Sigh. probably gay. Oh well. Just as well :-)