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The sit-down with upper management went as well as one could expect. They liked what we had to say and told us the timing couldn't be better. History shows that they're prone to smiling in your face and then sitting on their hands when it comes to being proactive. We'll see if there are any changes made by this time next month. In June it may be too late either way, so they might want to take advantage of what I have to offer while they can. Of course nothing is ever guaranteed and they don't know what kind of time frame I'm working with. It would suck for them to have to find out the hard way. At least the ball's in my court right now.

You could say that I'm in limbo with a lot of things right now. I hate limbo. I like stability, but I also like to be constantly forward moving. There comes a time between having a firm grip on your current level of comfort and taking it up a notch where you have to figure out if it's the right time to take that step. Rarely is it easy to figure out. Of course I'd rather be faced with these kind of problems then the kind that I was dealing with about a year ago.

Certain recent events have left me forlorn... which is good because they've made me realize that I still have feelings, but sucks because I don't know if I'm supposed to have those feelings in this particular instance. There are a couple of things I could do to alleviate these feelings, but those temporary solutions would only make me colder when it's over, so I can't tonight...

Anyway... I really have no right to complain. Life is good, I just can't stop myself from wanting more. I'm willing to work to get it, but once I set my mind on something I either get it or hurt myself trying. .It would help to know that the things I want are obtainable goals.

On another note, this month makes it 2 whole years in the city of angels for me. I also have a birthday next week, which should be exciting, but may or may not turn out that way. I'll be having a party at my place and going out a couple of nights to celebrate. If you're interested in details and don't have them yet then let me know, I'll hook it up.

Otherwise try to imagine how much fun we're having...

You could listen to a song a thousands times, but you'll never really hear it until you're in the right frame of mind. I'm in the mood to make a mixtape.