docsparrow

As always there is alot going on in my life and nothing at all at the same time. I cant find a job to save my life and its fuckin killing me. I spend all day submitting resumes and filling out online applications and I never hear anything back. Its getting really fuckin discouraging and I feel like a real piece of shit because LiLi needs my help more than ever with money and i bring nothing to the table. Which is a shitty feeling but I cant dwell on shit to much because LiLi is going through SO MUCH SHIT.

LiLi family only gets crazier and she is just so overwhelmed with all of it. I really think she is getting to breakin point this morning she seemed like she was ready to just through caution to the wind and fuck EVERYONE up. SB.... LiLi's mom is a great women but recently she has just lost her fuckin mind and does crazy fuckin shit all the time and its everyone notices it. Usually she takes other poeple into consideration and is polite, but now she is completely consumed with herself and just doesnt give a shit about anyone or anything around her. I just want LiLi to be happy and i want everything to be fuckin normal but NOTHING is every easy for us.

As the holidays approach I am very concerned to see what will happen. LiLi already made it very clear to me that she will NOT be attending christmas or thanksgiving if her mom brings her boyfriend. I dont think SB will even give a shit i am pretty sure that me and LiLi will be hanging with my family for the holidays which is fine with me but i feel bad that things just cant be normal for my baby.

BUT on a lighter side there is nothing wrong with me and the LiLi physically we are both in good health.

I really doubt anyone is gonna read all of this but if you did thanks.



oh yeah and my BDAY is on sunday that should be fun