Well its another day i still feel like fuckin shit though but all i can do is keep my head up. Work is easy and i am learning really fast and i worked with one of the service managers today and he was like "for the most part you got all this bs down but we gotta perfect a few things." which like whatever i am fuckin fertilizing lawn and spray weed control on them but i guess the shit is super potent.

I got another phone since i broke my old phone on fuckin sunday only problem is i dont have ANYONES fuckin phone number cause the idiot asshole were being asshole idiots or something IDK but whatever.

SOOOO send me a text with your fuckin name 630-440-8859

I still miss my lili really bad everytime i hear my phone ring or it vibrates i hope that maybe its her but it never is. I dont know what i have to do but she said she want me to leave her alone and she will talk to me when she is ready but i dont know if that means "leave me alone" or "i want you to want to talk to me even though i dont want you to"

i dont know if i can live with out my a leee i fuckin hate myself so much right now why cant i ever do anything fuckin right

well i guess its time for me to stop being emo and go get in the shower

LE SIGH