SOOOO I have not had a smoke or a drink in 8 days, and its been hard but with the help of KiltedGoth i have stayed strong. Also I have been workin out everyday to get into better shape cause i am sick of being outa shapes and shit. So KG has been helping me with diet and exercise to make me into a giant sexy killing machine like him.

The only hard part about the whole not smoking and drinking thing has put me on edge with everyone around me. Especially the LILI rebel84 she is around me the most and she is the closest to me i guess the saying "you hurt the ones closest to you the most" is true.

I am really sorry baby i love you and i know that i can be the boyfriend i used to be when i am done with all this.

Thats all