dobler

i think people pay more attention to people who aren't as close to them.


i am guilty of doing all the things i usually complain about. i hate that a lot.


i think people just write off what the people who are close to them say because they feel like they already know everything they have to say.

well i know that i don't know everything there is to know about everyone i'm close to. and i remember i used to think i did. i wonder if the people im close to think they know me like the back of their hand?

i just get in really reflective moods sometimes. i'm always thinking these things in the back of my head though. it's the kind of thing i sometimes honestly can't talk about with people or explain to them so i write it in a stupid online journal.


this may be something i just made up in my head like all the rest of my self esteem issues but i just feel like no one thinks i'm an actual person.

it's just little looks i get and little comments or huffs or puffs.

about something as simple as what movies i love or the bands i listen to.

today is retarded.

i hope tonight is better.