i have nothing to update on.
i'm not extremely happy with my life but i'm not totally dissapointed either.
i am more independent then i have ever been.
i am more close to my friends then i have ever been.
but then...
i miss my mom more than i ever have in my life.
i am the fattest i have ever been in my life.
i am the most confused i have ever been in my life.
and i am more self conscious than i have EVER been in my life.
very intoxicated.
i finally decided that it's NOT me. it is them.
it is the guys that i get to know that are the problem.
i'm sorry if i get to know boys and only like them as friends.
i'm seriously getting fucking tired of having to defend my feelings.
thats why their called feelings because you FEEL them and it's not something you can help.
i need to do some SERIOUS fucking work on myself.
i need to fix myself.
but until then...FUCK BOYS.
i've never had one and am perfectly happy without one right now.
it really is true. you have to love yourself.
i'm not extremely happy with my life but i'm not totally dissapointed either.
i am more independent then i have ever been.
i am more close to my friends then i have ever been.
but then...
i miss my mom more than i ever have in my life.
i am the fattest i have ever been in my life.
i am the most confused i have ever been in my life.
and i am more self conscious than i have EVER been in my life.
very intoxicated.
i finally decided that it's NOT me. it is them.
it is the guys that i get to know that are the problem.
i'm sorry if i get to know boys and only like them as friends.
i'm seriously getting fucking tired of having to defend my feelings.
thats why their called feelings because you FEEL them and it's not something you can help.
i need to do some SERIOUS fucking work on myself.
i need to fix myself.
but until then...FUCK BOYS.
i've never had one and am perfectly happy without one right now.
it really is true. you have to love yourself.
i fucking love that picture.
p.s. i hope your mom wants to pay for gas money, beacuse i want to road trip with you.
Families are great, I miss my family.
Fattest you've ever been? What a coincidence I'm the oldest I've ever been in my life. I'll get over it though. I like me regardless, you should too.
Nothing wrong with just wanting a boy as a friend and nothing more, if they have issues with that then fuck em.
Why defend your feelings, if that's the way you feel fuck all that's just the way it is. Who's anybody else to question that.
p.s. I'm dying to know what that last word is you're writing