dncswthangls

Hmmm.

I should probably just admit this and get it over with...

Posting pictures on here is exceptionally difficult for me. I guess you could say I'm using SG as a theraputic way to move past my body-image issues. So the comments you all leave me really are appreciated--more than you might think--though I still doubt the sincerity of some of them at times, NOT because of the person commenting, but because of my own self-doubt. I am a perfectionist after all, and when I do not see perfection in myself, I feel like anything less is--well--undesireable at best, disgusting and/or worthless at worst.

I blame the media

I don't want pity or anything of the sort; that's not why I'm saying this. It's just that a few of you already know some of this, and a few others seem to suspect as much, so I figure I'd just come right out and say it plainly.

I'm not trying to hid anything, just grow as a person and move beyond it. It's limiting and obsurd to care so much about unreached "perfection."

There is much I understand intellectually, but even with all of that it's difficult to convince my emotion and insecurity. I fight with my illogical side constantly. I'm stubborn at times, which is rather frustrating

So, I'm actively trying to work on it. Obviously, or I wouldn't even be posting anything on here. Many of the images I have put up I actually dislike greatly...

Anyway, enough of this. Sorry to bother you with it; just wanted the curious ones to know up front.

Thanks everyone for your support and kindnesses. I cannot express my gratitude.

<3