Sorry for the third update of the day, but I've been feeling like shit and have to write.
I talked to my grandparents last night. They told me that one of my Mom's cats died last week. He belonged to my step-dad, who died in '98. She became more attached to this cat after my step-dad's death, and is now freaking out that it's dead. It's killing me that I am 3000 miles away and can't be there for her. I can't stand to have my mom in pain and not be able to help her. Fuck!
They also told me that I am going to have to call my ex-wife and sort out an on-going car title mess. I really don't want to talk to her, but it looks like I'm going to have to do it. She still doesn't know that I moved to California, and I haven't had any contact with her since May. Also, the anniversary of our first date is this week.(something we always celebrated) This is not going to be pretty.
In addition to that loveliness, I am so fucking fed up with being alone!
I'm feeling lonely, shitty, retarded, and fucked up. I'm going to go sit in a corner of a bar and get fucking drunk. I know that isn't the best thing to do, but that's what I am going to do.
A lot of good things have been happening to me lately, and I don't want to fucking whine and cry about shit, especially in a fucking journal on the internet. I just needed to vent.
I talked to my grandparents last night. They told me that one of my Mom's cats died last week. He belonged to my step-dad, who died in '98. She became more attached to this cat after my step-dad's death, and is now freaking out that it's dead. It's killing me that I am 3000 miles away and can't be there for her. I can't stand to have my mom in pain and not be able to help her. Fuck!
They also told me that I am going to have to call my ex-wife and sort out an on-going car title mess. I really don't want to talk to her, but it looks like I'm going to have to do it. She still doesn't know that I moved to California, and I haven't had any contact with her since May. Also, the anniversary of our first date is this week.(something we always celebrated) This is not going to be pretty.
In addition to that loveliness, I am so fucking fed up with being alone!
I'm feeling lonely, shitty, retarded, and fucked up. I'm going to go sit in a corner of a bar and get fucking drunk. I know that isn't the best thing to do, but that's what I am going to do.
A lot of good things have been happening to me lately, and I don't want to fucking whine and cry about shit, especially in a fucking journal on the internet. I just needed to vent.
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be safe, and drink some whiskey or something straight for me.
And ex's suck ass.