djxx101

I'm kind of down lately. Been a rough year. Each day I try to find a good reason to get out of bed abd start the day, and lately that has been a difficult thing to do. As I get older, I thought life was supposed to get easier. That has not been the case. I tend to analise everything, a lot, yet it seems like I always go left when I should have gone right. I don't know what to do or where to turn lately. I feel like a ball banging off a wall, or better yet I fee spread thin, like the last pat of butter scraped across too many slices of toast. I am weary, and so full of anger and despair right now. Last night I spent a few hours staring down the barrel of my loaded gun. I know that's not the answer, but........I don't know.