Had one of those days that reminds you that Life isn't perfect. Couldn't find my groove today. Just didn't feel like giving it my all today and my boss definitely noticed. I hate how he made me feel like I've let him down. I won't go into details. But his mannerisms were: a lot of subconscious shaking of his head and rolling of his eyes when he thought I wasn't looking. I wanted to... well what would you do if you were me?
I hate that I felt like I let myself down. I know I'm better than what I was today. But I just didn't feel like trying today. I wasn't even angry. I just felt like just giving up. I had momentary thoughts of turning to my director and just say, "I quit." This is not what I wanted to do.
But when I got home, feeling numb, I remembered I have had more good days than bad. And I've had bad days before. Plenty of days worse than today. This was just a setback. I'll fight back Thursday.
Maybe when I'm done with this job in July, I'll feel better. Starting over in a new city always feels good. At least initially.
I think this edIT album is helping inspire me again. Check him out. Or check out The Glitch Mob.
I hate that I felt like I let myself down. I know I'm better than what I was today. But I just didn't feel like trying today. I wasn't even angry. I just felt like just giving up. I had momentary thoughts of turning to my director and just say, "I quit." This is not what I wanted to do.
But when I got home, feeling numb, I remembered I have had more good days than bad. And I've had bad days before. Plenty of days worse than today. This was just a setback. I'll fight back Thursday.
Maybe when I'm done with this job in July, I'll feel better. Starting over in a new city always feels good. At least initially.
I think this edIT album is helping inspire me again. Check him out. Or check out The Glitch Mob.
Sometimes you feel like that love. And you are right, you will feel better.
Take care you, and I'm rootin for you.
~cheers