Ciao,
Back from Italy and just about over my jetlag. Trying to catch up at work sucks though
So it looks like a busy week, but then down the Eugene to see Taj Mahal play on Saturday night
How come when things are too hectic I just want them to slow down...and then once I get things slowed down I get bored and make things hectic again??? I'm just on a perpetual cycle with only an illusion of control it seems.
Anyway, right now I'm trying to get things under control again...but I'm sure I'll be bored with that once I get there in a week or two.
bye for now
P.S. Italy was very cool
Back from Italy and just about over my jetlag. Trying to catch up at work sucks though
So it looks like a busy week, but then down the Eugene to see Taj Mahal play on Saturday night
How come when things are too hectic I just want them to slow down...and then once I get things slowed down I get bored and make things hectic again??? I'm just on a perpetual cycle with only an illusion of control it seems.
Anyway, right now I'm trying to get things under control again...but I'm sure I'll be bored with that once I get there in a week or two.
bye for now
P.S. Italy was very cool
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i know: i keep going back & forth between feeling like i've lost my mind & finally come to my senses. (i'm either really smart or really dumb...) maybe a little of both.
kudos for being the bigger person & calling your ex. if i had access to that fine scotch i'm sure i'ld be hitting it too... it's always good to try to cut thru the drama before it happens. of course some people tend to thrive on it. myself i am working on letting go of all that bullshit. i do not want to be bitter & nasty like my sister who lives with her 3 cats & 2 dogs instead of attempting human contact.
actually dinner & drinks was very pleasant. it wasn't like a romantic date: more like 2 friends getting together. the emotionally disturbing part came after when he said "see i'm a nice guy & i haven't changed my behavior at all." and "can't you put up with a little yelling?" yelling?! he left out spitting, throwing things, breaking things, kicking doors in, scaring ths shit out of the dogs, & acting like a maniac in general. this drove home for me that he is not pickin' up what i've been layin' down. i could put up with it, but i am CLEARLY NOT GOING TO ANY MORE. yeah for me!!!
he's already dating again, which mostly makes me feel sorry for whoever he's going out with cuz he hasn't worked on his anger problem enough.
hope the pics all turn out.
[Edited on Mar 31, 2005 8:29AM]
i can totally relate: he is also very much like a child & can be sweet as pie. there is always good & bad in relationships/people. the question is if there is enough good to balance out the other crap.