fuck.
i dont really know where to start. im so conflicted right now.
#1. I have the opportunity to move out of my parents house.
(but)
#2. Due to unforseen circumstances the job i currently hold will not allow me to work for roughly the next month or so. (very long story)
(therefore)
#3. I need to find a new place to work. But im limited due to the same reason that i cant work at my current job. (if you must know just ask me about it)
#4. So assuming i do find a new job, i will then instantly inform my father that im moving out, but this causes my next problem. im very sure that i dont want to move out if he wont allow me to repurchase the car that ive already given him $1000 for. (anytime we have a finacial disagreement he decides to take something from me as compensation, last time it was the truck)
(so)
#5. Assuming that I do find work.....I could technically move out without the car. but i dont think i should. i just know that staying here is a bad idea. fuck. i dont think 30 hours a week working anywhere is to much to ask for.
(and to make matters worse)
#6. Im letting this new girl that im trying to talk to get to me way to much. i want her, she doesnt want me. but she still wants to be friends. but we dont really know each other very well. i might be going to stay with her this weekend at her school. im excited to see her but at the same time....idk....i feel stupid for having feelings for her when i barely know her and even stupider for telling her that i can be her friend when i know that i wont be able to handle it. why does the hopeless romantic in me always have the misconception that shes going to fall for me?
...idk what else to say about all that.
#7. My ex (michelle) called me yesterday and we went out for the afternoon. it was accutally kinda nice.
#8. I've basically got $100 to last me until my income tax return shows up. I dont really have alot of expenses other than gas for my truck. so i should be ok.
so far the past 6 years of my life have been more than just hard on me. i guess all i can ask for is that things are going in the right direction.
my emotions(in order)
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p.s. - thanks to everyone ive met through sg for being the coolest fukin people ever
i dont really know where to start. im so conflicted right now.
#1. I have the opportunity to move out of my parents house.
(but)
#2. Due to unforseen circumstances the job i currently hold will not allow me to work for roughly the next month or so. (very long story)
(therefore)
#3. I need to find a new place to work. But im limited due to the same reason that i cant work at my current job. (if you must know just ask me about it)
#4. So assuming i do find a new job, i will then instantly inform my father that im moving out, but this causes my next problem. im very sure that i dont want to move out if he wont allow me to repurchase the car that ive already given him $1000 for. (anytime we have a finacial disagreement he decides to take something from me as compensation, last time it was the truck)
(so)
#5. Assuming that I do find work.....I could technically move out without the car. but i dont think i should. i just know that staying here is a bad idea. fuck. i dont think 30 hours a week working anywhere is to much to ask for.
(and to make matters worse)
#6. Im letting this new girl that im trying to talk to get to me way to much. i want her, she doesnt want me. but she still wants to be friends. but we dont really know each other very well. i might be going to stay with her this weekend at her school. im excited to see her but at the same time....idk....i feel stupid for having feelings for her when i barely know her and even stupider for telling her that i can be her friend when i know that i wont be able to handle it. why does the hopeless romantic in me always have the misconception that shes going to fall for me?
...idk what else to say about all that.
#7. My ex (michelle) called me yesterday and we went out for the afternoon. it was accutally kinda nice.
#8. I've basically got $100 to last me until my income tax return shows up. I dont really have alot of expenses other than gas for my truck. so i should be ok.
so far the past 6 years of my life have been more than just hard on me. i guess all i can ask for is that things are going in the right direction.
my emotions(in order)
-
-
p.s. - thanks to everyone ive met through sg for being the coolest fukin people ever
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braddn:
I used to live in eastpointe. Interesting. Good luck on that shit man. I would avoid my SG journal though. It tends to be nothing but me whining.
braddn:
I'm from out of state. But lived in Eastpointe for 6 years.