So here goes nuthin. I've got alot on my mind, and although im inclined to believe that no more than 5 people a week read this im gonna go out of my way to get as many things off my mind as possible. i hope this doesnt get to long.
so la la la la....., minding my own business watching aqua teen when BAM!!! ....stupid fuckin ex girlfriend is like, "hi! remeber me? how are you (and) oh by the way i havent heard from my fiance in over a week". i was like, "oh, hi. yeah. thats nice. bye." but still, i told her that i didnt want to hear from her again after what she did to me. obviously she didnt listen. fukin a. why do i still try to be nice to bitches who break my heart. its not like shes the first. mutherfuker. whatever. life aint nuthin but bitches and money.
anyway on with the real news. i just found some clips of aqua teen, online, i dont think ive ever seen anything funnier than that show.
er:"No fuckin way"
green dude:"yes way, er, for we are blessed to be in the presence of THE MOON MASTER"
er:"but nobody makes it past level 3!"
green dude:"someone just did er, bow down before him for he is our lord"
HAHAHAHAHA! THAT SHIT KILLS ME. im puttin the whole episode on my myspace page (www.myspace.com/Kung_fu_phil)
on with the news.
i feel like im experienceing the maximum entropy of the universe. (i think i heard that once on some smart people science video, or something like that) whenever things start going my way its like i want everything to be fixed instantly. instead i end up (feeling) like im moving in slow motion, and about to hit a brick wall. cuz the past 5 years have proved that everytime something good happens to me something 10 million times worse is bound to follow.
i.e. <------(does this mean "instant example"? i always thought it did, [anyway]): everytime i get a car, a good job, a new apartment, a girlfriend, or something along these lines it only last for a little while. then all of a sudden; the girl ditches me, or my dad decides to sell my car (this has happened twice and its an even longer story), i get fired (which isnt gonna happen again, cuz now i have a pimp ass job, only bad part is its not completly full time, yet) or i wound up in jail (pot possesion) and had to move back to my parents house because it was a stipulation of my dad paying for the lawyer. but yeah.
its not that im trying to whine like a bitch or anything. im definatly dont mean to. its just that im slowly making that uphill climb through school again, and im acctually pulling all A's. and i have a good job on top of that, which only promises to get better. and i have 24/7 access to a truck (which is my only real weak point, and im trying as hard as i can to do something about it).
but for those of you who dont really know me to well my parents are ultra fucked up, jesus loving assholes. theyve got me going to a shrink where they tell me that the best thing for me to do with my life is sleep, all day long, for the rest of my life. right. yeah. its fun to be dead! so i do what i can to appease them. ive been in my parents house for (3 years?i think) now and im really trying to suck it in for a little while longer so when i leave i dont have to look back. i just have this tiny little fear in my gut that asshole is gonna take his truck away and make it a living hell to get to school, work, or out with friends again. whatever though. my general motto is "fuck it", and take the ups with the downs and just go on living. hopefully nothing gets any worse.
but with all that said im acctually super geeked about school. ive finally found a major that i absolutly love and at the same time the more i find out about it the more i realize that theres a potential to make but loads of loot. (im a communications and design major). so my ability to stay positive with school has kept me doing great in all my classes, which is really fuckin cool cuz im still 24 with maybe 15 credits at best.
one more thing before i go, cuz i want to get all my bitching out so i can organize it in my brain later.
ive got this great job that ive been at for about a month. pays really good to start with the promise of being promoted within a year or so. the shitty part is last month i only worked like 5 days. it was totally a double edged sword though cuz i got to spend time with friends and at school. still im conflicted though, because i want to make as much money as i possibly can asap while at the same time im almost content working part time and having maximum time to study with the leftover time to spend with my friends. all in all theres not much i can do about work other than grin and bear it. but yeah....
ok. i think i feel better now. ive just been trying to organize all that craziness in my head everytime i drive somewhere and i really wanted to write it down somewhere.
mad props to all my peeps, yo.
so la la la la....., minding my own business watching aqua teen when BAM!!! ....stupid fuckin ex girlfriend is like, "hi! remeber me? how are you (and) oh by the way i havent heard from my fiance in over a week". i was like, "oh, hi. yeah. thats nice. bye." but still, i told her that i didnt want to hear from her again after what she did to me. obviously she didnt listen. fukin a. why do i still try to be nice to bitches who break my heart. its not like shes the first. mutherfuker. whatever. life aint nuthin but bitches and money.
anyway on with the real news. i just found some clips of aqua teen, online, i dont think ive ever seen anything funnier than that show.
er:"No fuckin way"
green dude:"yes way, er, for we are blessed to be in the presence of THE MOON MASTER"
er:"but nobody makes it past level 3!"
green dude:"someone just did er, bow down before him for he is our lord"
HAHAHAHAHA! THAT SHIT KILLS ME. im puttin the whole episode on my myspace page (www.myspace.com/Kung_fu_phil)
on with the news.
i feel like im experienceing the maximum entropy of the universe. (i think i heard that once on some smart people science video, or something like that) whenever things start going my way its like i want everything to be fixed instantly. instead i end up (feeling) like im moving in slow motion, and about to hit a brick wall. cuz the past 5 years have proved that everytime something good happens to me something 10 million times worse is bound to follow.
i.e. <------(does this mean "instant example"? i always thought it did, [anyway]): everytime i get a car, a good job, a new apartment, a girlfriend, or something along these lines it only last for a little while. then all of a sudden; the girl ditches me, or my dad decides to sell my car (this has happened twice and its an even longer story), i get fired (which isnt gonna happen again, cuz now i have a pimp ass job, only bad part is its not completly full time, yet) or i wound up in jail (pot possesion) and had to move back to my parents house because it was a stipulation of my dad paying for the lawyer. but yeah.
its not that im trying to whine like a bitch or anything. im definatly dont mean to. its just that im slowly making that uphill climb through school again, and im acctually pulling all A's. and i have a good job on top of that, which only promises to get better. and i have 24/7 access to a truck (which is my only real weak point, and im trying as hard as i can to do something about it).
but for those of you who dont really know me to well my parents are ultra fucked up, jesus loving assholes. theyve got me going to a shrink where they tell me that the best thing for me to do with my life is sleep, all day long, for the rest of my life. right. yeah. its fun to be dead! so i do what i can to appease them. ive been in my parents house for (3 years?i think) now and im really trying to suck it in for a little while longer so when i leave i dont have to look back. i just have this tiny little fear in my gut that asshole is gonna take his truck away and make it a living hell to get to school, work, or out with friends again. whatever though. my general motto is "fuck it", and take the ups with the downs and just go on living. hopefully nothing gets any worse.
but with all that said im acctually super geeked about school. ive finally found a major that i absolutly love and at the same time the more i find out about it the more i realize that theres a potential to make but loads of loot. (im a communications and design major). so my ability to stay positive with school has kept me doing great in all my classes, which is really fuckin cool cuz im still 24 with maybe 15 credits at best.
one more thing before i go, cuz i want to get all my bitching out so i can organize it in my brain later.
ive got this great job that ive been at for about a month. pays really good to start with the promise of being promoted within a year or so. the shitty part is last month i only worked like 5 days. it was totally a double edged sword though cuz i got to spend time with friends and at school. still im conflicted though, because i want to make as much money as i possibly can asap while at the same time im almost content working part time and having maximum time to study with the leftover time to spend with my friends. all in all theres not much i can do about work other than grin and bear it. but yeah....
ok. i think i feel better now. ive just been trying to organize all that craziness in my head everytime i drive somewhere and i really wanted to write it down somewhere.
mad props to all my peeps, yo.
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i.e. = latin: id est (that is).
adv : that is to say; in other words
well damn, ya learn something new everyday! i've used it before, but never actually knew what it stood for.
thanks! my intelligence quotient just went up a point!
If you don't like the situation. Change the situation. If it means loosing the truck, living out of backpack and surfing europe. What better place is there to loose your current proto-life and just be and really live. Your still so young. And the student Visa window of seeing other countries, seeing how others live and redefining you closes so quickly.