Well, it's the holiday season...and I'm stuck here in Afghanistan, again. I haven't caught a Thanksgiving or Christmas at home in three years. Being deployed 2 out of the last 3 years hasn't made it any easier haha...times like always suck, not being able to spend time with those you love back home. I guess that's just how the cookie crumbles sometimes. I have no problem living away from home, I rather enjoy my life in the military...I was so eager to get away when I graduated high school. It's just when days like these come around, you have a lot of time to sit back and look back on your life. I realize that I have missed a lot of great experiences, especially in regards to my younger brother and sister. There are so many great things that they've accomplished that I wish I could of been around to witness. Sometimes, I feel like it's difficult to maintain that solid Big Brother relationship with them because I am so far away. I look at postings on FB from friends and family back home, and wish I had that life; the time they have to spend with each other and share all those awesome life experiences. I feel like I'm missing out on so much. I can't seem to really connect with friends and family, and it's ridiculously hard for me to keep any sort of romantic relationship...I've been struggling to keep a hold of this awesome girl back in Florida because we live such different lives. Maybe it's just time for me to hang up the uniform and go after that "normal" life I think I want so bad... :\
