djbq

ever have one of those days where everything goes wrong?
(i feel like i've been starting a lot of journal entries like that lately . . . )
seems like i just can't do anything right at work. i'm lucky i already had my review. today i did a k-9 blood donation and drew it into a single blood bag for stored whole blood - but the dog is A+ (not the universal blood type for dogs) so we're NEVER going to use it as whole blood - but we really need the plasma . . . so then it became this big ordeal trying to figure out how to separate the plasma when it wasn't in a 3-bag system . . . anyway.
and i took over the day shift schedule for the nurses and it's been nothing but a huge headache.
and my husband's been grumpy for a week - and he's never grumpy, so i don't know what the deal is.
and ya know how sometimes people say perfectly nice or innocent things and you take it totally the wrong way - me.
and then i come to SG where i can almost always get cheered up. i mean, even if pictures of naked chicks can't solve your problems, they can at least make you smile. but today it just makes me feel like shit. and i love Snow - i think she's stunningly beautiful, but today looking at her pictures just makes me sigh w/ longing and want to crawl into a very dark room and hide under the covers.
why do women, educated, enlightened (in the lay sense of the word) women constantly feel the need to compare themselves and find fault w/ themselves - physically?
i've worked really hard to overcome some of my hangups, and then, BAM! out of nowhere today i look at these gorgeous pictures and never want to get naked again.
i don't understand my brain and it makes me mad.
bad brain! bad brain!