so, skyy, my dearest girlfriend and girlfriend, had to move back in w/ her parents b/c her sister and brother in-law picked up and moved out here to co to their dead uncle's house. poor baby. and she doesn't want to have sex w/ her boyfriend, but she had sex w/ her republican capitol-hill workin' friend.
and one of my other girlfriends, one who did a lot for me in terms of helping me accept the way my heart works - use the term bisexuality if you must - sat me down for a "talk" that she's be telling me she wanted to have w/ me for months now. but she can't talk when she sober and she doesn't want to talk when she's drunk b/c she thinks i won't think she's serious. but i made her talk - shined the bright light in her face and all. anyway, it all boiled down to her having feelings for me and having to distance herself from me b/c of it b/c she's afraid she'll fuck up our relationship. i tried to tell her that if we've known each other for 5 years and she hasn't managed to drive me away yet, she's not going to loose me now. plus, i'm not the easiest person to be friends w/ so the fault's certainly not all her's if things get fucked up.
sigh. i guess i don't have any real insight resulting from this past week. no real reason for writing this journal entry. just felt the need to spell some things out.
at least things are good on the home front.
at least the taxes are done.
at least i got my new yoga rug and music in the mail - inspiring.
at least i got a raise.
at least now i can afford to get my hair done.
at least i have soft fuzzy funny dog to cuddle up w/ and
at least i have the muppet movie to watch.
maybe when i'm done there will be a few more green buds on the trees, another crocus in the yard.
and one of my other girlfriends, one who did a lot for me in terms of helping me accept the way my heart works - use the term bisexuality if you must - sat me down for a "talk" that she's be telling me she wanted to have w/ me for months now. but she can't talk when she sober and she doesn't want to talk when she's drunk b/c she thinks i won't think she's serious. but i made her talk - shined the bright light in her face and all. anyway, it all boiled down to her having feelings for me and having to distance herself from me b/c of it b/c she's afraid she'll fuck up our relationship. i tried to tell her that if we've known each other for 5 years and she hasn't managed to drive me away yet, she's not going to loose me now. plus, i'm not the easiest person to be friends w/ so the fault's certainly not all her's if things get fucked up.
sigh. i guess i don't have any real insight resulting from this past week. no real reason for writing this journal entry. just felt the need to spell some things out.
at least things are good on the home front.
at least the taxes are done.
at least i got my new yoga rug and music in the mail - inspiring.
at least i got a raise.
at least now i can afford to get my hair done.
at least i have soft fuzzy funny dog to cuddle up w/ and
at least i have the muppet movie to watch.
maybe when i'm done there will be a few more green buds on the trees, another crocus in the yard.
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the weather here is nuts. last week we got out our coats again, but this week packed them up again. i am spoilt i think.
i am far from french. we've been living in paris for about 10 months looking for real estate. we're going back to canada in 10 days which has me excited. it has been an astonishing challenge in many ways and paris is a great city, but it's time to go home.
it is really time to go to bed.