so, my hubby finally got in touch w/ skyy. turns out the roof of their apartment caved in w/ the storm and her boyfriend's car was crushed by a falling tree.
the hospital where she works was shut down by OSHA b/c they had no power - i have no idea what they did w/ all the animals.
i would have asked but i didn't get to talk to her.
my husband called me after he got off the phone w/ her and told me that he told her i would be calling her right back. i called and got her voicemail.
needless to say, she isn't coming to CO in the foreseeable future.
i still took my vacation days though. i needed the mental health time.
b/c the fact is that somehow learning what happened to her didn't make me feel better.
sure, it gave a good reason why i hadn't heard from her - that didn't involve her hating me all of a sudden - but only sort of.
i mean, if you were going to visit someone and knew they were expecting you, and you couldn't make it, for whatever reason, even if your life was falling apart, wouldn't you still call that person just to say "i won't be there - don't worry if you don't hear from me for a while, i'm not dead, i'm just dealing w/ this shit"?
all i'm saying is that it doesn't explain why she never called or emailed me, never returned one of my messages.
i don't know why she picked up the phone when hubby called, but if he hadn't gotten through to her, i might still be in the dark!
so yesterday was a gorgeous autumn day and i almost called my husband to take me to the nut house.
i was on the verge.
instead my friend elizabeth called an i took the dog to her new place, right at the foot of the mts in boulder, we walked the dogs, i cried on her shoulder and we ate fish and chips and drank beer.
she is just a/b the wisest person i know.
and she understands my situation. she used to be in love w/ her best friend too.
thank god for her.
today i tried a little retail therapy - bought a beautiful vintage light blue jackie-o style jacket.
going to see george acosta tonight.
i guess i feel a little lesscrazy as time goes on.
how bad is avoidance for the psyche?
the hospital where she works was shut down by OSHA b/c they had no power - i have no idea what they did w/ all the animals.
i would have asked but i didn't get to talk to her.
my husband called me after he got off the phone w/ her and told me that he told her i would be calling her right back. i called and got her voicemail.
needless to say, she isn't coming to CO in the foreseeable future.
i still took my vacation days though. i needed the mental health time.
b/c the fact is that somehow learning what happened to her didn't make me feel better.
sure, it gave a good reason why i hadn't heard from her - that didn't involve her hating me all of a sudden - but only sort of.
i mean, if you were going to visit someone and knew they were expecting you, and you couldn't make it, for whatever reason, even if your life was falling apart, wouldn't you still call that person just to say "i won't be there - don't worry if you don't hear from me for a while, i'm not dead, i'm just dealing w/ this shit"?
all i'm saying is that it doesn't explain why she never called or emailed me, never returned one of my messages.
i don't know why she picked up the phone when hubby called, but if he hadn't gotten through to her, i might still be in the dark!
so yesterday was a gorgeous autumn day and i almost called my husband to take me to the nut house.
i was on the verge.
instead my friend elizabeth called an i took the dog to her new place, right at the foot of the mts in boulder, we walked the dogs, i cried on her shoulder and we ate fish and chips and drank beer.
she is just a/b the wisest person i know.
and she understands my situation. she used to be in love w/ her best friend too.
thank god for her.
today i tried a little retail therapy - bought a beautiful vintage light blue jackie-o style jacket.
going to see george acosta tonight.
i guess i feel a little lesscrazy as time goes on.
how bad is avoidance for the psyche?
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it was great.
except the guy to girl ratio was a/b 3-4 guys for every girl.
i like to chat w/ and watch the cute girls.
anyway, it was a great show.
probably the last time i'll get loaded for a long time.
i needed it.
i'm feeling pretty good right now.
i just wish this feeling would never end.
i guess that's where addictions come from - and the biology.
luckily i missed that gene in my family.
my sister got it.
but i got the depression gene.
so i don't know whose better off.
well gotta go.
later skaters.
vega